Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Things to ramble about...

I'm in the mood to write but I'm not sure what I'm gonna write about so I think I'm just gonna ramble...

I think my hair's already getting too long and too brittle. I used to use flattening iron just after shampooing my hair which is once in 3 days, but now I HAVE TO use it everyday because its getting wild. If I go to sleep, the next morning some part of it will get curly again and I have to flattening it over and over again. crap. I really do want to cut it. with changchutters style haha. I know its corny but I think that hairstyle is cute if you imply it to small and petite girls so it'll exposes the cute side of that girl. haha. BUT, unfortunately I cant cut my hair because I've made a promise to myself that I wont cut my hair till my graduation day. haha. I don't know what it will looks like later maybe Medusa will have the resemblance of me. My friends protested me that it's not possible to let my hair all grow just like this but I stand still. I've made a promise to myself and I wont break it. otherwise, I'm affraid it'll give me bad luck if i break it. so, haha. enjoy my hair peeps. comment whatever you like but whatever you say I still wont cut it so don't bother to push me into cutting it. haha.

what else I'm gonna ramble about?? hmm..kotex! have you try the new and improve one? the one in purple package? It's goookiiillll. hahaha. It absorbs your blood just like a vampire. and it really leaves your V dry. cool. I've tried it and satisfied with it. so, to you all the girls that read it, you should try it! it's the best among all the brand.

I still dont know why I ever fall sooo hard on a guy like this. its crazy.

I used to be a complete geeky teenager when I was in high school. My mom always told me to crawl in bed at 9, we'll have a little chit chat before I completely fall asleep in 10. it used to be my daily routines and i was ok with that. never complaining. I even thought that it was a good thing because I always have enough time to sleep so I was never feel sleepy the next morning. I used to think that the people who cant sleep till morning is a weirdo, including my mom who has Insomnia. what's so hard in doing that? sleeping is not even an activity. you just have to close your eyes, clear your mind off till it completely empty and bum! suddenly you just accidentally unconscious. and I used to turned my phone off before I get to sleep. My friends even hate me because they cant reach to me when they need me in the middle of the night. and I think that set your phone on 24 hours a day just to have a chat with your boyfriend, your gebeten, or your whoever till midnight or past midnight was just useless. You'll see him or her eventually. there's no need to exaggerating things like that. but eventually, I become one of them. I have an accute insomnia and I set my phone on 24 hours.

Do you know that male seahorse carried the eggs of their children? and they're also doing the child birth? I watched it in discovery channel. and once they're giving birth, they can pop out up to -if i'm not mistaken- hundred eggs. that's the perfect example of emancipation. Imagined if human being do that. or imagined if Men are going through period just like us girls. it would be CHAOTIC. Us girls when we had a bad day because of your PMS or your period all we can do is complaining about everything,cemberut and ngomel2. But if it happens to Guys on earth, maybe they would punch everyone possible without a reason and it can cause a war. seriuosly. hahaha. it's amazing how God's work. Subhanallah.

I saw the Vierra band at TV. they are sooo young. around 18-19. and it's great. I mean, they are soo young and they can produce something usefull like a band, a song, I think that's great. then look at us when we were at that age. I even still do useless things until now and produce nothing.

I have to get that charles and keith shoes.one way or another.

Ok. stop rambling

Sunday, March 29, 2009

HAHAHA. sweeeeeettttt.

I Know I've made my friends panicked and shiz but I can't help laughing at that moments because its pretty funny to me. hahahaha.

So, last night I had a fight with my ex boyfriend, it's not a major fight though but its enough to ruin my mood completely. I just hang up before he finished his sentence and I turned both my phone off. but before it, I sent a text massage to him explaining a few things but then I turned it off directly. like I said before, I lost my everyday mood completely. I dont want to read a book, a magazine, play computer or whatever everything seems uninteresting to me. I wanted to watch my tv but it was korslet the other day haha I don't know how to put the word correctly in this sentence so i wrote it in indonesian ok? iya, tv gue sempet korslet trus ngeluarin bau2 gosong gitu. gilaaaaakkkk. dan gue nggak berani nyalain sejak hari itu sampai hari ini daripada gue coba2 terus gue berubah jadi dendeng gara2 kesetrum. yaaahhh makasih deh. mending gue matiin aja. and then I wanted to surf the internet but my internet connection went onde mande rancak bana. Died, I mean. uuurrrrrggghhh I hate my life!!! yasudah, gue bingung kan mau ngapain lagi. bengong2 gitu, ngantuklah gue. dan tidurlah gue di jam2 tidak wajar yaitu jam9.

Suddenly, at 11 o'clock I heard my friends punching my window. and they were screaming my name. I woke up in shock,open my window, and I got all panicked too. they seem so panick and I start to think "what happen?? a fire? am I trapped all alone in this building?". serius nyet, gue juga panik bukan lo doang. so, here are the conversations.

"BABAS!! BABAS!! BABAS!!!"
"Yayayaya?? hah?? kenapa??" sambil ngantuk2 gitu.
"ELO KEMANA AJAAA?!?!"
"Gue tidur. kenapa kenapa ada apa??"
"YA AMPUUUN ELO TIDUR?!?! BAAAASSSS!!! ELO BIKIN ORANG PANIIIKKKK!!!!"
"Hah? emang ada apaan?"

and then I opened my the door and they told that my ex called my friend because he had no idea where I was and he was sooo worry because he cant call me and my ym ID was not active. He sent me some massage but there were no reactions from me. so he called my friend and she went all panicked. Dia bener2 langsung ngebuzz2 gue di ym, dikiranya gue invisible tapi nggak ada balasan. and then dia langsung sms beberapa temen2 gue yang memungkinkan menanyakan dimana gue berada. terus dia menelepon temen gue yang lain ngajakin nyari gue. hahaha. I know it must be sucks but its funny at the same time because all i did was go sleeping. hahaha. dan temen gue semakin panik ketika semua orang nggak tau dimana keberadaan gue. akhirnya dia mencari gue bersama dua orang teman gue yang lain. first thing first, kosan gue. dia semakin panik ngeliat lampu kamar gue mati. dan ketika dia tau gue hanya tidur, wahahahaha gue tau banget dari muka orang2 sebenernya mereka pengen banget ngejitakin gue atau motong2 kepala gue jadi cuilan kecil2. gue juga merasa bersalah sebenernya, gue cuma ngambek dan bikin orang sebandung panik. hahahaha. I really am sorry friends.

Untungnya, malemnya pas banget bacok ulangtahun kan. we surprised her in meryl's kosan dan karena gue bikin orang panik malam itu jadi i got the first cake!! yeayness! hahaha. thanks bacok. and we went directly to McD untuk ditraktir bacok. asik2!!! so, it all work out in the end.

But, it really touches me REALLY. melihat betapa paniknya teman2 gue, dan nyari gue kemana2 gue jadi tersentuh gitu. oh my god, how nice of them. beneran nyet, it was so sweet karena gue nggak pernah menyangka gue adalah tipe orang yang bisa dipanikin gitu karena gue emang suka sembarangan banget. But i got it all wrong. they are the bestest friend in the world! hahaha. begitu gue ketemu dan selamat sehat walafiat tanpa kekurangan apapun temen gue langsung sms bilang dia lega banget gue ketemu, olla malah nyangka gue diculik karena malem2 gitu nggak memungkinkan buat gue kemana2. haha. amit2 deh sih ol sebenernya. dan begitu gue nyalain handphone, sms bertubi2 datang dari temen2 gue yang nyariin gue. ya ampuuun. seriously, it was soooo sweeettt of you guys to have ever did that to me. EVER. hahaha.

quotes

Tenna Handarini Saibi once said:

"Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option."


Friday, March 27, 2009

This actually has something to do with my previous post.

I heard one of my friend saying,

" Gue barusan liat pameran anak2 fotografi kampus. jelek banget nyet. foto2nya biasa banget, terus displaynya juga sama sekali nggak menarik. seni apaan coba tuh?!?! "

Gue ngerti sih kenapa dia ngomel2. boleh dibilang, He's the founding father dari komunitas fotografi khusus di jurusan gue dan dia yang bekerja mati-matian supaya temen-temennya bisa semakin meningkatkan kualitas foto mereka. sementara fotografi kampus itu hmmm gue nggak tau persisnya sih. tapi mungkin karena anggotanya banyak jadi pelatihan2 dan program-program mereka nggak bisa terlalu masuk kali ke newbies-nya. lagian, gimana mau bagus sih kalo isinya cuma ABG2 labil yang cuma pengen foto2 karena itu lagi musim, bukan karena good sense of art?? hahahaha. ketawa aja deh gue.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

To Those, the followers.

Gue mulai muak deh sama eksistensi lomo and SLR camera. yeaaaa everyone getting one. dont get me wrong, i admire those who like and study photography before it gets famous and to those who buy purely for art not just because they have the money to waste. Gue semakin muak setelah belum lama ini salah seorang teman yang gue kenal, eh tiga orang teman yang gue kenal, beli kamera SLR just because they can. One of them even go to Darwis Triadi school of photography, again, just because they feel like they have all in the money in the world. Satunya lagi beli bener-bener karena ikut-ikutan massa SLR yang telah menjadi bak kacang goreng dengan alasan "yah gue butuh buat kuliah gue. harus ini harus itu.". blah. I know millions of people majoring the same subject who don't feel like they have to buy SLR to support their grade. dan begitu gue liat hasil fotonya. hmmm... standard. abis. nothing's special. temen yang satu lagi malah lebih parah, dia beli kamera SLR supaya dia bisa difoto2. jadi dia beli foto itu buat orang taking picture of her while she know nothing about art. apa sih?!?! nggak jelas banget deh. gue muak banget sama orang-orang yang beli semuaaaa yang mereka mau hanya karena barang itu lagi trend dan karena mereka punya duit. mungkin beberapa orang bisa balikin ke gue dengan, 'nah, elo apa bas? bukannya lo tukang buang2 duit juga?? and the bla and the bla." beda dong. gue ngabisin duit gue buat hal-hal yang terjangkau. Baju, tas, sepatu. bandingin dong sama orang-orang yang beli Macbook hanya karena itu keren padahal dirumah udah ada Toshiba yang baru. atau mereka yang beli PS3 cuma buat main harvest moon atau bubble something gue lupa namanya. yang pas dikritik, "ngapain? lo bisa gitu main tuh bubble di HP?" dan hanya dijawab dengan, "lebih enak aja kalo di TV." OH MY GOD. atau mereka yang beli nintendo Wii hanya karena jessica alba pake dan ada Wii diet yang lagi ngetrend di kalangan selebritis hollywood. WTF?!?! dan mereka pake duit orangtua mereka. mereka bahkan belom ngerti kalo duit itu nyarinya susah. kerja aja belom, kuliah belom tentu beres. gue heran aja sama orang2 kaya gitu.

Gue bukan pengikut seni, don't even have Deviantart. mungkin beberapa orang mikir nggak pantes gue ngejudge. belum tentu gue bisa menghasilkan karya oke di kamera. yes, emang bener dan gue nggak tertarik buat belajar foto karena I KNOW I DON'T HAVE THE TALENT AND THERE'S NO NEED TO PRETEND THAT I HAVE ONE JUST BECAUSE I AM ABLE TO BUY THE CAMERA. that's my point. ngapain maksain sesuatu? ya nggak hanya dalam hal kamera. gue juga benci orang2 yang sok2an pake kaos Ramones tapi begitu ditanya "Blitzkrieg Bob ada di album apa sih?" cuma bisa menjawab dengan senyum atau "hah? apaan tuh?", atau yang pake kaos incubus tapi cuma tau kalo brandon boyd itu ganteng sama lagu I miss you doang. dalam hal ini, gue merasa berhak buat sebel karena I am one of those who don't wear a band clothes unless I know about the band quite well. atau mereka yang jadi fashion victim yang pake blazer tanpa sadar udara jakarta uda mirip hellhole. padahal, mix and match menurut gue juga harus diliat dari segi kenyamanan dan pantes nggak sama bentuk tubuh dan lingkungan lo. jangan malah bikin lo jadi segendut babi haha suck on that.

Mungkin bagi sebagian orang, jadi follower itu keren ya. ngerasa nggak ketinggalan. mungkin bagi sebagian orang, ngikutin trend baju di gogirl meskipun bikin proporsi badan mereka jadi nggak jelas tapi itu cool karena jadi nggak ketinggalan jaman. begitu juga dalam hal blackberry, camera atau kaos band. but, I do admire them who do all those things I mentioned above before those things get famous and I respect them yang pasti sebel mati-matian karena tau2 banyak follower yang ikut2an masuk ke dunia mereka tanpa kemampuan yang sama dengan yang mereka miliki. so, it goes out to those anak2 fashion design yang punya weird and imaginative also creative fashion sense yang dari dulu pasti suka extraordinary things, to those who learnt photography before it gets famous especialy to those who earned their own money and collect them to buy their dream cameras, to those who wear band clothes because they adore the band. don't be proud to be follower. you're nothing but a junk. haha.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

He stands on her side. Enjoyed her face for the last time, carved it inside his mind, touched her cheek, and put a gentle touch on it, he was enjoying the very last moment of it. ‘You take a very good care okay, I’ll see you when I see you. Once again, thanks for everything. I really had a great time with you and enjoying every moment of it. Now lock the door, close your window and go, your friends are waiting for you.’ ‘Ok, you take care. Bye....’ ‘Goodbye’

And he let her go… after told her his feeling yesterday. It was hard for him to do what he did yesterday, but decided not to do anything about it was the hardest part. Maybe it is better if it ended this way…

I love the not happy ending part. thanks for the story
Hangga.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Mysteries of Pittsburgh


I've finished this book couple of days ago and it was quite good. Keren. anak muda banget. Meskipun emang konfliknya nggak yang jreng jreng jreeeng gitu. maksud gue bukan konflik yang heboh banget tapi flownya lumayan naik turun. talking about Gay and bisexuality. menggambarkan dengan sangat pas pergumulan (tai bahasa gue 'pergumulan') batin seorang art bechstein to decide whether he is straight, gay or maybe bisexual. and I like the end of the story where Michael Chabon lets it all hang and I think if you had and experience just like Art maybe you will have the same end because not everything in this world has a conclusion. dan gue baru tau kalo ternyata buku ini best-seller karena kayanya nggak segitunya banget juga deh sampe bisa jadi best seller.

Daaan gue juga baru tau kalo akhirnya buku ini dijadiin film dan jadi recommendation movie in Sundance Festival 2008. It's funny how at first, when I read about Phlox, I imagined that Mena Suvari would fit her perfectly dan ternyata beneran dia dong yang meranin Phlox. and Jon Foster really pictured Art perfectly. dapet banget karakter cowok 'lemah'nya. however emang gue gemes banget sama kelemahan si karakter utama ini. but the movie sounds boring so I still not decide it yet whether I'm gonna watch the movie or not. and my feeling was right, after the first premiere in Sundance,
In particular, the romance between Cleveland and Art is criticized for being very subdued relative to the heterosexual relationships in the film. Also, the episodic nature of the film has been noted for being disjointed. so, does anyone interested to borrow or maybe buy this book?? It has a cute cover though. haha.

Drat.

I really really hate it when I want something sooo bad but I can't get it. I'm talking about the Charles and Keith Shoes. hehe. Sepatu putih bertali2 yang ribet (gue suka banget sepatu ribet nggak tau kenapa haha), hak tinggi dan kerreeeennnn. statement shoes banget deh. sayang nggak ada yang pas di kaki gue. crap. dan gue pengen banget banget bangeeetttt nyari lagi tapi nggak tau dimana lagi bisa dapet sepatu keren dengan 150rb saja seharga sepatu putih kemaren itu. And right now I'm looking at amber rose's another ribet shoes. and I envy her. crap crap CRAP!!

please oh please need to get out of here.

I'm talking about bandung. gue lagi boseeennnn bgt disini. bagi gue, setiap saat harus ke kampus itu nightmare. melihat orng-orang yang gue nggak pengen liat, melakukan hal2 yang sebenernya gue nggak pengen lakukan tapi mau gimana lagi. doing things that i'll regret. itu kan nyebelin banget. tapi kadang emang reflek. thanks god gue masih dikelilingi my dearly beloved friends yang sukses bikin gue ketawa sampe jungkir balik sejenak melupakan perasaan nggak enak yang suka iseng mampir.

Jalan Rancabentang no. 11B. hahaha. disitu you can do everything you want! itu kontrakannya temen2 gue yang bodoh2 and they always make my day! pas hari apa itu gue terpaksaaaa bgt balik ke bandung karena mau ujian. padahal udah males bgt gitu. nah bener kaan di kampus langsung dihadang pemandangan nggak enak. akhirnya dengan sisa2 semangat gue ngajakin eri belajar buat ujian di tempat rengga which is raben 11 b. yang ada, dateng2 gue langsung nonton dvd sampah bareng gilang jablay ben. dvd human cannibal collections!! hyahahahaha. sumpah nyet itu sampah banget dan sukses bikin gue katawa ngakak sama ceritanya yang katro2 abis. ada yang kalo makan orang dimulai dari bagian nipple dulu (WTF?!?!?!), ada yang suku tribalnya ngomong pake bahasa 'bababubuwhahwabwhabwha' tapi bajunya pake kemeja tartan, ada yang banyakan bokepnya. sumpah kampung abis. setelah puas ketawa-ketawa kita makan deh. setelah itu gue bertekad untuk BELAJAR! eh ya balik2 ke rengga malah nangkring di kamar ben, haha hihi terus nonton the extreme movie. itu juga katro abis filmnya. hahaha. you should watch it for yourself. kalo nonton sendirian emang pasti garing dan 'he?? apa sih nih film?' tapi kalo ditonton rame2, wah itu juara. hahahaha. abis itu, belajarkah? oohh tentu tidak. kita makan di gembul sampe pagi. balik-balik gue nginep tempat gilang, ngantuk, tidur dan besok paginya ujian gue tewas aja tuh pasti nilainya. yeah, whatevs i dont' care. haha.
And Michael Cera is soooo cute. haha.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

we o we

I'm on the manasik event in preparation for the umroh plan. i'm the youngest of all the participants. dan betapa bersyukurnya gue di usia semuda ini gue sudah berkesempatan untuk insya Allah mengunjungi tanah suci dan melihat rumah Allah the almighty. Hiks hiks. Makasih mama...

Yesterday,

A very long conversation happened in my friend's car. biasalah berawal dari curhatan-curhatan nggak penting, obsesi kita di masa depan dan akhirnya talked about random things. and that's when my friend said:

Women destined to be material chaser while men are sex chaser.

dan yang ngomong gitu nggak cuma dia aja ya, tapi bokap gue dan dosennya temen gue ini juga ngomong hal serupa. my father said it when i ended my long term relationship recently. and i remembered one of my guy friend's curhatan. yaaa dia cerita ada seorang cewek yang try to seduce him dan dengan gampangnya dia menerima sementara gue terbengong-bengong.

"Terus, lo mau aja?"
"Ya mau dooong. barang bagus depan mata gue masa gue nggak mau. dia lagi yang minta."

"
Terus abis itu?"

"Yaudah"
"Lo nggak ada rasa apa2 gitu kalo liat tuh cw lewat depan mata lo?"
"Nggak. ngapain?"
"ih kok gitu sih? kalo tau2 dia suka sama lo gimana? kan cewek suka pake hati."
"Gue males. terus ngindar aja, pura-pura sibuk kek."
"iihh...jahat.."
"Ya dianya jg mau? kenapa gue dibilang jahat??"

Gue hanya tertegun melihatnya. ya emang udah kodrat kali ya? tapi bandingin sama omongan yang cewek-cewek yang justru menganggap sex itu sebuah sarana meningkatkan rasa sayang terhadap lawan jenis. dan itu nggak hanya keluar dari mulut satu dua orang temen perempuan gue tapi almost semua temen perempuan gue bilang gt.


SIGH.


Gila ya, what an unfair world we live in.


Saturday, March 7, 2009

HOT

sumpah warung pasta panas bgt kaya tai. Norak.

Friday, March 6, 2009

hmm..

I feel like writing but actually i really don't know what to write. makanya isi postingan gue irit2 banget karena gue bener2 nggak tau mau ngomong apa, nggak ada kejadian seru apa2 daaannn nggak tau harus gimana. while people jason Mraz-ing out there I just sit here in front of my pc and do nothing.


gyahahahahahaha penting abis.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

simple.

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