the everything

well i'm tired of writing trash blogging. this past few days i've been visiting my family in east java and believe me, it was soooo tiring and if I have a choice next time, I won't do it again. my father was the only people who can drive in the car. well my mom can, I can, but he wouldn't want us to caused any harm because it's pretty danger actually. so, I don't how it feels to be him that days where he had to drive along practically everywhere. if me, who just have to sit down and eat was feeling exhausted like hell than what about him? thank god when we're back he goes right to his massager.

tomorrow, I have to get back to work. yeah, that sucks. ever since i'm interning in UNICEF, I know the exact traffic condition in jakarta and it kills me everytime. there's traffic everywhere and don't you bother to buy an exclusive ellegant car in jakarta since the motorcycles who fly around you will hit your car here and there anyway. and it's so frustrating. what if I had to drive my own car someday? just kill me. later on the thought of looking for a job outside jakarta haunt myself. I mean, I'm not the kind of person who can live far away from malls and shops since shopping is my favorite activities and I don't really like hang around because i'll get bored. then the plan comes to mind where i want to work in.... BALI! yes, i think i'll fit there since there are so many shopping centres bars and clubs everywhere. so, it'll be fun i guess! and i'm really looking forward to it. images of my riding bycicle along the beach lines, tanning on the beach, go surfing and snorkeling, back to work in surfaids. waaawww that's great. hahaha. that if i'll be lucky enough to get in Surfaids. but I won't wind working in a five star hotels too because i might find some interesting foreigners too! hahaha. ok that's too far.

ok what else, ooohhh I got a present from my brother and it's the very first surprising present I got from him. several times he gave me band t-shirts aa a present but it was me who requested it. but this time, he bought this thick english books and gave it to me without any notification where it surprised me in a good way. hope you will get semakin banyak rezeki mas!! i really do hope so.

my mentor called me stupid yesterday

No hard feelings. I know the situation is kinda harsh yesterday. it's clear that we're already sick of each other, we're so fed up of each other's words. then he called me stupid and I know I am. it's partly my fault too. but that's the point where I decided, I'm done with this horrible creature called nyoman sudira. I don't care if I have to get B C or even D for my thesis. they're much more better than having to deal with him for one more semester. the very first person whom I share this story with was Mahel. I know he's the one who will understands me the most since it's happenned to him before he's graduated. and he's really supportive. he wrote this in his shout out:

Dear Mr. INS, you call me stupid, you call my friends stupid. You broke our heart whenever we enter your room, you always make us feel inadequate just because you are Ph.D and we are just university students. But in the end you will see: YOU WON'...;T STOP US!! (Dedicated to my friend Dwitya Indiana Basitha, Shinta Wisnu Gupta, Ines Pamungkas, Klara Maria Dara dan semua yang tidak sempat tersebut)

hahaha see?? a day after everybody knew my story and gave me alot of support. thank you guys! I love you very much!

I kinda miss my old life.

in the mood to blog!

I knew I've been neglected my blog like batshit crazy but I'm sooooo busy with my new job! I worked at UNICEF for almost one month. eventhough i'm just there as an intern but i work full time, 9 to 5 and i've learned a lot from this. they put me in the retail section which make me had to deal with UNICEF's stores for charity all around jakarta and bandung. I have to make lists about what's in and what's out. what things are need to be delivered today or tomorrow. went to the storage to see the exact things and the codes, deal with buyers and etc etc. I know it's not match my degree in college but it sure is will help me if someday i got to own my own boutiques and bookstores. because of this job, I know what will I have to do if I own them. so it gives me a lot. not to mention my very kind boss, Ms.Nina. I told her that I'm not done with my study yet so I have to go back and forth to bandung for several times and she allows me to do that. she even tried to get me go home faster than any other employees for several particular time. you can't ask for a better boss!

I really enjoy it here since I learned so many new things, and I got the chance to make some new friends and know the working condition where the people are sooo different than college and it's scary sometimes because you never know which one is good or bad.
and I get to make some money!! haha. it's not a real salary though. not even half of my brother's salary, but I satisfied with it. you know, having your own money and really earned them until you don't have the guts to spend it. haha that's me. so, hope everything will work out well. at least until november then i'll come up with my new plan.