new songs!

Currently listening to TOE featuring Toki Asako and currently addicted to it. They're a band and a singer from Japan. actually, TOE is playing instrumental music but they had Toki collaborated with them to sing at this song called 86. you should listen for yourself. and if you pay attention to their lyric, it's about the Hiroshima bombing in Japan. The number 86 refers to the date of the Bombing, 8-6-1945. BRILLIANT BRILLIANT work.

8.36 AM and my boss hasn't showed up yet.

Savikalpa Samadhi refers to the initial temporary state of full-valued samadhi. The conscious mind is still active, as is the kalpa, meaning imagination. One should compare this meaning to that of sankalpa, which is "wish." Kalpa takes on a different, but related, meaning to sankalpa because one must use imagination or consciousness (kalpa) to envision a wish or desire (sankalpa). Conversely, vikalpa means "against imagination." At this final level of samadhi, the mind has become quiet and given up its desires and attendant. Vikalpa leads to the Truth, releasing one from any binds of mind (which are mostly imaginations). In Savikalpa Samadhi, we get the taste of Bliss and Beingness, but are still attached to our erroneous identification with the body as well as to our numerous worldly attractions.

I'm not involved in any form of meditation fyi so the reason I bring this topic up is because my dearest friend, Ben, introduced me to this form of meditation or samadhi in Buddhist as the way to get the things I really want in life. He said I don't really have to do the meditation part but I just have to put it deep in my brain and soul that I CAN DO IT or I CAN GET WHAT I WANT. To put those words deep in your brain, it's an easy thing to do. but to really put it in yourself, your soul and really believe that you'll get those things you want, it's a hardwork. I mean we're only human afterall and doubt often comes to mind so many times in life but by believing in it, the world and the earth become this one whole powerful package of energy that will synergize with your soul and become this one powerfull power to make everything you want in life comes true. you just have to really REALLY believing in it.

I tried these theory and you know what, some of my list of things made it ways to reality. and it made me a more positive person in a way. well by sharing these, maybe you can try it too!

books books books

I used to read a book just in my room, up in my bed. but recently I haven't got the time to even read because my mom always pushes me to get up early and follow her to the office when actually she has to arrive at the office at 7.30 while my work starts at 9. so I have to wait till it's 9 by doing anything useless in my office. Then I have to got home by myself at 5 where I'll arrive at my house at approximately 7 pm because of the traffic and it was so zzzzzzzzzz..... I've neglected my books more than ever when actually i have many books to read. but then I start to read them again but this time I read them everywhere. in the car, at the office, in front of TV in my living room. I rarely do that actually. but since my time is so limited I have to do that otherwise I won't be able to read all those books and I'd lost my english ability eventually so thank God I still can read them everywhere.

I start with a book from my brother, Second Helpings. Since the first time I entered my university life, I never ever read a high school-themed novel anymore. for me it's just too corny at times. so when I got this book, I was kinda hesitated to read it. I thought it's just not my thing. but then I had no choice since I haven't got the time to take A Clockwork Orange from Ayu and buy another Palahniuk's books, so, I read it. and it was AWESOMENESS. It's different with all those teenager's books. sure it involves lotsa love stories. But Megan McCafferty wrote it in a fun and strange ways so it looks different and fun to read at the same time. and it really can relate to my life. It got me thinking because I never told my brother the story of my life and I'm sure he just randomly picked the book so it's a very great thing he chose the right story for me. haha. so, it was like you read my mind or something brother?

But I won't spill the details. haha you should read it yourself!

woooorrrrrkiiiiiinggggg,,,,,,,,,

Lulus kuliah ternyata ada nggak enaknya juga ya. did I mention before that after I graduate actually I just want to cherish everyday more than ever by doing....hmmm...well..nothing. hehe. gue belom tiga bulan magang aja bosennya uda setengah mati, gimana kalo gue harus kerja yang kontrak setaun gitu?? zzzzz.... oh, ralat ya! gue bukannya males kerja, tapi gue males ngurusin ngelamar2, bikin2 cv, cover letter, interview2...pengennya gue tinggal ngedip trus kerjaan dtg ke gue. haha. sampah banget tp gue rasa semua org juga maunya gitu kan??
dan skrg gue uda disodok2 buat kerja sama bokap nyokap gue sementara gue masih mau les2 segala macem buat nilai tambah, masih mau foto2 underwater, sumpah yaaaa ituuuu ever so major malessssss.....

In desperate need of HOLIDAY

Sebelum lulus, gue punya tiga rencana liburan,

1) mau ke disneyland sama kania. uda mikir2 mau berangkat kapan, mau kemana aja, blablabla. terus batal gara2 bokapnya kania uda bawel nyuruh2 dia cepetan nyari sekolah s2, les dan lalala.
2) mau nyusul jessie ke lombok. mau snorkeling and other interesting seagull activities. batal gara2 jessie tau2 jadian sama danang, balik ke bandung trus ga balik2 lagi ke lombok. wassalam.
3) ngeracunin bokap nyokap gue pulang kampung ke padang. nanti gue mau curi2 waktu sehari dua hari ke sikuai. gue tau bokap gue pasti semangat banget diajakin ke tempat2 kaya gitu. eeeehhh PADANG GEMPA. batal.

trus sekarang i'm still working as an intern di unicef sih tp sumpah yaaa mulai membosankan. gue mikir gimana kalo gue kerja beneran ya? ini gue belom tiga bulan aja uda bosen, uda pengen main kemana2. di kantor uda males nanya2 kerjaan, ngebayangin pulang, nonton dvd, trus bobo. hahaha. tp enak sih abis lulus uda bisa bebas baca buku tanpa beban. sekarang lagi baja second helping, hadiah dari banu. buku tolol tentang diary anak freak di high school gitu, bikin gue ngakak2 sendiri. contohnya, waktu dia ga ada kerjaan trus di kelas dia wawancara meja, kursi, buku, benda2 mati. pertanyaannya aneh2, kaya "geli nggak waktu gue nulis di atas lo?" ahahahaha. TOLOL. anyway, itu menghibur banget sih. dan besok mau ngambil a clockwork orange di ayu. YES! susah banget nyarinya di indonesia. seneng banget gue ayu mau bawain dari Aussie.

tapi inti dari post ini adalah GUE BOSEN DAN GUE PENGEN BANGET LIBURAN. liburan bareng temen2 tanpa mereka rutinitas. pokoknya gue pengen suasana baru, PRONTO!

List of books I want to buy..

Since my 'sidang skripsi' went quite well, and before that I dont have time to read because i was trying so hard to balancing my life on the tip of my finger with all these problems, so after that I just want to grab these books right away! nggak right away juga sih, gue nggak punya duit skrg..hahaha

1) Atheis - Achdiat K.Mihardja
2) A Clockwork Orange - Anthony Burgess (uda nitip ama ayu di Aussie. tau deh dia dapet apa nggak.)
3) Fira Basuki - seri Ms.B yang baru sama Paris apaaa gt judulnya lupa. tapi harus beli!
4) Chuck Palahniuk - Stranger than Fiction sama Diary (liat di QB tp agak mahal jd harus ngumpulin duit dulu kayanya).

udah sih buku ini dulu tp pengen banget punya. ahaha. ga penting sih gue tulis, tapi gue tulis aja biar inget. hehe.