there was a burglar broke into my house yesterday,

I still don't have the power to write the complete story. losing something is never easy for everyone. maybe I'll go with some facts.

The Bad Things:
1. I loss my phone. I bought it with my own money, my scholarship money. and I can say I have to dried out my bank account to get it.
2. i don't have another wallet. the one that they stole was my only wallet in this world. beside the ababil's wallets hidden in the very back part of my cupboard. eversince the tragedy, I have to borrow my mom's wallet eventhough none of it was really my style but I have to feel satisfied with it.
3. There's only 150thousands left in my wallet. But lately I've been trying to save some of my money since I've been too busy on spending it until I realized that there's not much left in my bank account. just when I decided to do some saving, the burglars took my money. Great.
4. Insecurities. I think we should move out from this area for a better condition. but not everyone in this house has the same thoughts. and I'm pretty upset with it.

The Good Things:
1. They didn't took my laptop. there's my thesis and thesis material in it. I'll hang myself if they ever do that to me.
2. They didn't hurt me and my mom. not even a bit. and I'm very grateful by the fact.
3. I have a reason to buy a new phone! actually, I've been bored with my phone since suddenly it became too common. my mom promised me to buy me a new one when she got her credit card back. yay!
4. Being more careful. I've been too careless about my things. I never really put attention where to put it in my room. and I've been too consumptive lately. For years, I couldn't afford many things I wanted and I thought about how unlucky I was for not being able to buy everything I wanted while everyone around me got it with no single effort. felt intimidated by my own condition. I was sad. I was angry. but God has been kind to me. He fixed my family's condition. we get better everyday. But then, I'm back to my old self. where I can always have what I want everytime I want it. I started to take everything for granted. I shopped a lot. I think I should give more appreciation towards my parent's work and my own work, knowing the source of money and how it's not easy to get them. to get the amount of money my parents earn since I couldn't even produce a single penny. I hope if I hold a great amount of money in my hand later, I have to use it more carefully and wisely. and never look down on people. no matter how great your things are, there will always people above you.

CAPEK

Ternyata ngurusin orang nikahan tuh capek ya.. Icha, ini elo yang married kenapa jd gue ama kania yang capek muter2 jakarta yaaa?? belom jait kebaya. dan kenapa mesti biru sih cha? gue kan nggak suka warna biru? *masih untung dikasih*. but I'm happy for you cha. dan karena gue sibuk banget ngurusin lo mau nikah, tiap hari gue jd nggak ada waktu buat mikir yang lain2. and it really helps me forgetting my loneliness. *kisses*. semoga langgeng ya cha sama tody.. :)

Moving out is not easy

On my previous post, I told how hard it was for me leaving Bandung. Unfortunately, there's another big problems in this moving out thing. MY GOODS. I never really realized, 4 tahun di Bandung ternyata gue ngumpulin barang sedikit demi sedikit lama2 menjadi bukit. ditambah hobi belanja gila2an dan terkadang impulsive yang ternyata turunan dari Mama. Baranga gue sumpah yaaaaa jadi banyak banget. dan begitu sampe rumah, semua nggak kebagian tempat. baju aja ada dua koper sendiri, sementara lemari 3 pintu gue di kamar, dua pintu udah penuh sama baju2 gue dan satu pintu lainnya bener2 nggak ketolong penuhnya sama baju2 NYOKAP gue. di ruang seterika ada satu rel yang udah penuh juga sama baju2 bokap, NYOKAP dan gue. terus di depan kamar seterika juga ada another lemari 3 pintu yang penuh sama baju2 NYOKAP gue dan anduk2, taplak2, bahan2 rumah tangga gitu deh. dari tulisan di atas keliatan kan siapa yang nimbun baju paling banyak sendiri? HAHAHAHA. not to mention her own private cupboard full of her things. ini baru masalah pertama.

Masalah kedua, tas gue. nggak nyadar gue menimbun tas juga di bandung. ada yang beli, ada yang dikasih, ada yang oleh2 dan ternyata tas menempati satu kardus besar sendiri waktu pindahan. haduuu tas2 gue di rumah aja uda apa kabar bergeletakan tak berdaya gara2 nggak ada tempat. untung masih terbungkus rapi dengan kain pembungkus resmi dari gerainya, kalo nggak, mungkin uda jamuran.

Masalah tiga, sepatu. waktu di bandung emang gue dibeliin rak sendiri buat sepatu2 gue. tapi ternyata jumlahnya beranak pinak jadi pada nggak kebagian tempat di rak mungil gue. padahal sepatu2 yang nggak kepake uda gue buang2in. haaaaa nampaknya kebiasaan belanja2 ini harus dikurangi because I really have no idea where to put all my things are. satu2nya solusi ya bikin tempat2 baru. Me and my mom thinking about build a closet, tapi nggak ada lahannya kayanya di rumah gue. but we're still discussing it, hope we can find the best solution.

Masalah terakhir, di luar itu barang2 gue masih banyak banget yang bingung mau ditaro mana. kasur, mini rice cooker, tempat roti, boneka2 baru dari temen2 di bandung, karpet, accesories, lemari kecil, meja ukir, TV, deelel deelel. haaaaaaaaa sumpah pe eeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrr!!!

Leave everything behind, new life awaits.

It's so hard for me to leave Bandung for good. this past four years, I've gone through a lot here. the good the bad the up and the down. there's love and hate, lost and found, friends and enemies. all. why everything have to go so fast? I still can see myself as a newbie and I remember it clearly. me, the ugly duckling back then, struggling to make some new friends in this completely new and strange condition. who would've thought, for years later I have so many friends and I even take them as my second families, I've never felt so accepted like what I had here. eventhough sometimes the boredom is killing me, there's no great mall here and I can't shop at my favourite stores, but I had more fun here. with my bestfriends. It's so sad just thinking about leaving them. in this city, we live far away from home, and we helped each other to struggle in every situation. we supported each other. we cared for each other. that's why we found a strong bonding in our relationship. I've never been so open to people like I am now with them. I love them so much as they helped me through my darkest times. eventhough I still can see you guys sometimes, the thoughts of wouldn't be able to see and hang out with you everyday keeps killing me. after this, we'll work, or we'll go wherever it takes to fulfill our dreams and hopes, and we won't have time to meet each other everyday or just to have a simple chat on the phone. but one thing for sure, I'll keep in touch with you guys in every way possible. i'll try one way or another.

There aint no mountain high enough
aint no valley low enough
aint no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you, babe
Marvin Gaye - Ain't No Mountain High Enough

These are some of the memories:
things are packed.

My Last stand. too bad it's blurry.

Intrex. this was the last time we gather up in complete formation. I hope someday we'll reunite. we'll be successful career women at that time. amin!

semua yang pernah skripsi pasti pernah mengalami ini!!

I swear to god I'm not a morning person. at all. at friggin' all. makin parah lagi kalo malemnya harus tidur pagi tapi besoknya bangun pagi. kaya sekarang, revisi bab 1,2,3. ngerjain udah dari taun si doel, tapi ngurusin printilan nggak penting seperti footnote dan sistematika itu yang paling ASU! butuh waktu berjam2 sendiri. dan besok pagi jam setengah8 uda harus bangun. buat sebagian org yang insomnia atau yang biasa tidur dikit mungkin mikir, 'yaelah..cuma segitu doang!'. tapi buat yang nggak biasa kaya gue, itu BERAT. MAHA BERAT. plus, I don't like coffee and I stopped smoking several months ago, so it's getting harder. I can't keep my eyes open and once it's closed, it's sooo hard to open it back up.

temen gue yang kuat ngopi bisa tidur jam 3, jam 4. apalagi yang doyan espresso. juara deh. gue sih sukanya air putih, susu, sama minuman jeruk2an. mana kuat gue begadang? jam 12 aja kadang gue uda lemah banget. bangun siaang. mobilitas gue ya sangat tinggi siang sore malam, sisanya harusnya gue tiduurrr. HARUSNYA. tp kalo keadaannya kaya gini, siapa yang bisa protes coba??

daaannn hari ini nyokap gue membuat gue SHOCK.
gue emang td pagi bawel sms nyokap gue minta bikin kebaya. taun ini ada beberapa temen gue yang mulai nikah, dan hopefully ada satu big event juga dalam hidup gue. that's why, kebaya kayanya mulai perlu deh ini. nggak dibales tuh sama nyokap gue. tau2 sore2 nyokap gue sms, nanya,
"kmu nikahnya kapan?"
gue kaget dong. gue kira nyokap salah ngetik. mungkin maksudnya, 'temen kamu nikahnya kapan..' gitukali ya? gue baleslah. gue jelasin temen gue ada yang nikah agustus sama akhir tahun ini 2 org. taunya nyokap gue bales,
"iya..kalo babas kapan? sama siapa?"
NAH LHO NAH LHO
untung gue mengajukan jawaban cukup smart,
"kapan2.. sama jodoh yang dikasih oleh Allah SWT. bener nggak??"
dan dijawab,
"betul!"
lah? aneh banget nyokap gue...
mama kenapa sih ya kok kesusu banget?? santai kali ma.. hahahahaha.

now another bulbo thingies!

I don't know what to do in this goddamn weekend so I decided to do this unusefull things! haha.

Go through your wall posts and list the last 21 people to post on your wall or comment
on your status. Do not list any repeats; simply go to the next name in the list. Then
answer the 42 questions pertaining to the 21 names. When you're finished, tag all 21
people on the list, so the cycle can continue. If you've been tagged, copy and paste
this information into a new note and follow the directions above.

01. Aditya Bagas
02. Edward Sinulingga
03. Amalia Juliasih
04. Haniza Thaharah
05. Dita Paranandia
06. Rainy ELmira Monalisa
07. Genfrifinadi Pamungkas
08. Lesthio W. Hastjarjo
09. Rengga Adi Putranto
10. Andre Christian
11. Aswin Freezin Utomo
12. Vira Arvianda SIregar
13. Ben K. C. Laksana
14. Niya Pinkish
15. Intan Cinditiara
16. Pascalis Iswari
17. Raka Fathony
18. Amanda Kuswandi
19. Almira Gilangkania
20. Tani Indira Dewania
21. Ashleika Adelea

1. How did you meet 1?
He's my ex boyfriend in middle school.

2. What would you do if you never met 15?
she surely is the nicest person I've ever met. so, if I never met her, maybe I don't know where to spill everything out.

3. Would you date 20?
absolutely not! nggak banget deh tan!

4. Have you ever seen 8 cry?
In fact, I hardly seen him everywhere. haha. we're not that close.

5. Would 3 and 13 make a good couple?
I think yes. they're both intellectual and smart. they will be a very laid down couple.

6. Describe 9.
He is wise and mature. I always believe advices he gave me and everytime I got into trouble, esp in boys department, I always ran to him.

7. Do you like 16?
of course. she's fun to be with.

8. Do you think 5 is attractive?
I think yes. I didn't really know her complete personality, but I can tell you she's attractive, kind and I trust her. hahaha najis banget gue muji2 lo gini. cih!!

9. When was the last time you talked to 8?
I forgot. we rarely had a conversation. all we did just say hi to each other.

10. Would you ever date 10?
Nope. he's nice, but he's not my type. and 15 will definitely kick my ass if I ever do that!

11. Where does 15 live?
somewhere in ciputat.

12. What’s the best thing about 21?
she's best at everything. in fact she's my very bestfriend in this world.

13. What would you like to tell 18 right now?
"nda, berhenti ngambil2in foto gue secara candid!!!"

14. What is the best thing about 7?
He's funny.

15. Have you ever kissed 4?
yuck! males banget ya ha gue nyium2 lo!!

16. What's the best memory you have of 3?
at junior high, we called each other to talk about -of course- boys. I had this huge crush toward her classmate. as long as I remembered, she never told me her crush but my brother's friend adored her and I tried to be their matchmaker. unfortunately and fortunately -since I didn't think the guy was good enough for her-I failed. haha.

17. When's the next time you're going to see 12?
soon I guess. next thursday will be her thesis presentation I will attend the event.

18. Is 18 pretty?
of course she is!

19. What was your first impression of 4?
jutek dan ganggu! who knows we will be good friend at high school and till now? haha

20. Is 13 your best friend?
oh yes! I trust him at everything and vice versa. including private parts of our life.

21. Have you seen 16 in the last month?
yup. in fact we hung out quite a lot.

22. When was the last time you saw 14?
uuhhmmm... last week's friday.

23. Have you been to 21's house?
million times! everytime I got there, she always insisted me to stayed for 2 nights minimum!

24. When is the next time you'll see 10?
ooh I don't know.

25. Are you really close to 1?
no, our relationship ended up badly. haha. then we never talked again. we graduated, we lost our contact. and facebook met us up eventually!

26. Would you give 19 a hug?
of course I got the ever so juicy informations from her!

27. Have you ever been to 11's house
nope.

28. Do you know a secret about 5?
some of it. I mean, it's not actually her secret. but she told me stories that not everyone should know.

29. Describe the relationship between 17 and 19?
they don't know each other..

30. What's your friendship like with 7?
kaya apa ya ge? haha ya gitu2 aja. temen ketawa2 sama jail2an doang.

31. Have you ever danced with 17?
hahaha no and never will be!!

32. How do you know 21?
she's my bestfriend since I was in first grade in junior high. it's amazing how we still have this amazing friendship for ten years long.

33. Does 2 have a boyfriend?
it would be scary. he had a girlfriend.

34. Have you ever wanted to punch 6 in the face?
never! she's my long lost bestfriend!

35. Has 11 met your mother?
nope.

36. Have you travelled anywhere with 12?
nope but we'd love to!

37. If you gave 15 $100, what would she/ he spend it on?
buy a ticket to go to singapore and meet up with her LDR boyfriend.

38. What's your best memory of 19?
everytime I had a crush on someone, I told her. and eveytime she heard rumours or facts about my fling, she absolutely would all go bisik2 misterius with her gossip face and said, "babassss, aku punya ceritaaa tentang si mas muuu..." hahaha. you're so funny you know that don't you??

39. What is the one thing you most want 12 to know?
I know you know you think I'm exaggerating things about him, but I don't think I can get over him at this time around. it's not that I can't, I'm not ready, I'm the one won't letting all these memories go. so, you should get yourself use to it. I'm sorry.

40. What was the last thing you did with 9?
we texted each other. I asked him about some boys stuff. dos and don'ts.

41. When did you meet 20?
Last thursday.

42. What do you wish for number 16?
get married soon! hahaha.

new settings!!

WAAAW. nampaknya setting seperti ini lebih bold ya. gue suka deh. hihihi.

Bangun pagi, cuma ada satu kata di otak gue, SUSHI! haha. iya gue lagi PMS dan nggak tau kenapa bulan ini ngidamnya ngidam sushi jadi sehat lah yaaa. Jadilah gue ngajakin Kania dan gue ke rumah dia tuh siang2, decided to follow her to her campus first, then we go straight to PS to eat sushi tei afterward. tadinya Kania keukeuh mau kuliah dan gue udah yaaa yaaa males banget gue nungguin lo kuliah dulu. untung, mata kuliah yang pertama ternyata ngumpulin tugas doang dan mata kuliah kedua kelasnya sepi jadi kania males. HAHAHA. bersyukurlah gue dengan sejadi2nya. pas balik sempet ketemu sama ashley icha gyta gitu nggak sengaja di tempat makannya anak trisakti. gilaaaakkk langsung peluk2an gitu kaya orang kesurupan soalnya uda lama bangeeetttt gue ga ketemu ashley yang ansos mulu sama tugas akhirnya! terus sempet becanda2 ketawa2 lama deh disitu, dikenalin ke kharisma sama aryo. baru deh gue sama kania cabut ke ps, ashley sok2 nggak mau ikut. tai banget. padahal uda mau gue bayarin sushi.

sesampainya di PS, yeaaaa me and kania changed our shoes directly!! from flats to high heels. Me and my friends in Jakarta started to feel the tante2 passions in our body. kalo ada acara ngumpul ya ampuuun semua heboh deh dengan dress2 dan high heels masing2. seneng sih. buat orang sekecil gue, high heels ngebantu banget bikin kaki gue terlihat lebih jenjang. so, it became my bestfriend. hahaha. terus muter2 pake high heels 11 cm di ps ternyata capeek yaaa. tp I'm sure there will be next time. hee hee

satu hal yang ganggu banget hari ini. rambut gue KENAPA BANGET DEH LOO?? aduuh nggantung nggak jelas gitu dan hari ini gue memutuskan untuk beli hairclip right away. haha nggak segitu langsungnya juga sih tapi gue HARUS BANGET HARUS RUS RUS RUS beli hair clip nggak boleh nggak. gue udah putus asa banget tadi sama rambut gue. tiap ngaca itu rambut bikin penampilan gue serba salah bgt kaya anak kampung. poni dilepas, salah. poni gue jepit ke belakang, makin salah. poni gue jepit ke samping, salah juga. akhirnya gue sebel gue kucir aja semua dan poninya gue jepit2 gitu deh sampe kaya orang maksa gitu gue ahaha. jadi dalam shopping list gue ada metal fortis dan hairclip itu WAJIB BELI!!

Lihat kamu berputar.

*CRYING MODE*

I miss my long hair and I regret my decision to cut my hair this short. now it's clear that short hair is not my thing. now I realize I'd rather had my arms grow muscle in it because of straightening my hair every once in three days rather than cut it this short and appear to be this BORING. I mean, I never mind to appear this boring on daily basis. yeah, this pony tail or let it all hang just right there. but then it became BIG PROBLEM when I had to attend some party. I used to curled it or just ironing it but it helps me to look more mature and it helps to cover some of my body parts. the thing is, I really like to wear something which shows my cleavage and arms, something brave and confidence, but since I have this stretchmark all over my body -result from being fat couple of years ago- my hair always got it cover. now it's gone. and like it or not I have to choose my clothes carefully to covers the body part that I hate. within this couple of months where I already cut it short, I've attended two or three party and to be honest I look miserably boring with this hair. good clothes, killer shoes and nice bag are nothing when you look so wrong just because of your hair. it really is kills me.

am considering to use Metal Fortis to fasten up the growth process but heard rumors that it will makes your hair super dry and it's big problem remembering my hair is dry and brittle enough without the metal fortis. but I really need to growing it back. do you know some ways to make it long again?? if you have any idea, please let me know. PLEASE.

Just another thought

I know, people think it's impossible, I do too sometimes. It gets in my nerve sometimes, and believe me it's not easy to face it. But, what keeps me strong and sane is, I don't know why, but deep down inside my heart, there's this belief that I couldn't get rid off, that's still there. and no matter how hard I tried to get rid of it, it stays there. and sometimes the light comes in, then it go dark again. but the hope is still there. somehow, I still have this belief, I still hope and I know that it's not impossible. it's in someway possible. I just haven't found the right path yet, maybe God has something in store for me when the time is right. just not right now. But I believe, there's this possiblity, against everyone's beliefs. and thank god, it's still there until today.

not much to tell...

-gue kecewa bgt sama black heart inersia. apppaaaaa ituuu lagu incubus jadi kaya gitu. hah gue rindu masa2 enjoy incubus, science, yang masih funk banget, masih keras banget. nggak kaya sekarang. katro. kata temen gue sih itu strategi mereka narik massa yang masih muda2. nah, sukses kali ya? karena waktu gue nonton konser mereka kemarin, itu emang banyaaakkkk banget ababil yang nonton. secara tinggi badan, gue emang sejajar ama those ababils kan, jadi berdirinya deketan gitu. dan waktu incubus mainin megalomaniac, lagu2 baru, wooohoooo heboh deh semua jingkrak2. giliran album2 lamanya dibawain, mereka pada "hah? ini lagu apa ya? nggak tau tuh gue juga ga pernah denger." dan itu bikin die hard fans seperti gue ini MALAS dengernya. haha tp yaaa it's their rights kaaannn buat suka sama band mana ajaaa. jadi ya gue nggak bisa berbuat apa2. hehe. dan untuk pertama kalinya waktu album Light Grenades keluar kemaren gue nggak beli cd aslinya, padahal biasanya meskipun gue punya soft copy-nya gue selalu punya album aslinya juga. tapi ini gue terlalu nggak sudi hihi. nah pas single black heart inersia keluar kemaren gue jadi males juga beli cd aslinya meskipun itu the best. zzz

-gue tadi bimbingan skripsi dan nervewrecking bangeeeeet.gue udah mau bab4 yaaa udah lega, udah seneng2, udah mikir, haaaa udah two steps ahead menuju luluuusssss. apaan. tadi teori gue di bab1 masih disalahin dan disuruh rubah yang manaaaaa itu akan merubah bab3 dan bab2 gue juga yang manaaa itu semua udah beresssss. gue jujur sejujur jujurnya udah mulai putus asa deh. FUCK

-rencana liburan terpaksa ditunda deh kayanya.

-gue males banget sama badan gue yang naik turun kaya setan gini beratnyaaa. kemaren gue uda berhasil nurunin ke berat ideal dan sekaraaaaang naik lagi. gue sebeeeelll.

perasaan gue nggak enak banget deh. sumpah nggak enak.

The Museum Trip!

Sorry for the major lack of updates lately. the thing is, now I'm home. waktu di kost, semua hal ada di kamar gue, lengkap! sedangkan skrg, untuk pake internet harus di PC kakak gue. CATAT kawan2!! PC!! yang mengharuskan kepala guemendongak sedikit selama mengerjakan sesuatu. and believe me, ambience kamar kakak gue sangat tidak enak untuk mengerjakan sesuatu. well, he's a boy!

well, kemaren, tau-tau Adys dan Niya datang menjemput dan setengah memaksa gue untuk pergi Museum trips. awalnya gue agak-agak males gitu kan, abis Niya sama Adys bawa pacar terus ngajak dua orang temen mereka yang gue nggak kenal. malas deh. sebenernya dizan itu temen sd gue tp nggak pernah ketemu selama 10 tahun ini jadi tetep males. tapi gue dipaksa-paksa dan akhirnya gue mau behubung gue juga nggak ada kerjaan. eehhh tp setelah ketemu mereka baik baik dan seru seru kok. jd gue cepet ngeBLEND gitu deh. hahaha sampah deh bahasa gue NGEBLEND.

this is the group. di depan: Dizan, Gogon. Tengah: Defri, Adys, Gue. Belakang: Niya, Raka

first stop, Lubang Buaya. awalnya gue juga yang 'halah apa menariknya sih ngeliatin lobang gitu doang?'. well, honestly, it's been ages since the last time I got there and to be honest I've lost all the memories in that place. one thing I remember, there's this uninteresting hole to staring at and that's it. begitu sampe, awalnya juga gue yang biasa aja gitu sampai akhirnya kita ke bangunan museumnya yang terpisah sama lokasi lubang buayanya. disitu ada dua lantai replika miniatur kejadian-kejadian pemberontakan PKI dan yah it refreshed my mind. and it amazed me about the fact how inhumane people could become. cara-cara pembunuhannya itu bener-bener sadis. dan ada satu ruangan yang khusus majang baju-baju yang masih bersimbah darah sama rincian luka-luka yang diderita korban-korbannya. and it's so terrible. parah. ada foto-foto mayatnya juga dan banyak yang udah nggak berbentuk. terutama Mayjen Raden Suprapto sih yang penyiksaannya paling parah menurut gue. pernciannya paling panjang sendiri dan mayatnya paling nggak berbentuk. but the museum part has made me gain back my interest towards this history thingies and gain some respect for them who've become the victims. waktu baru sampe, gue cekikikan doang sama temen-temen gue sampai ada ibu-ibu yang bergumam, "astaghfirullahalaziim. inilah perjuangan para pahlawan kita." bukannya sadar kita tetep ketawa-ketawa. tapi begitu masuk ke museumnya, waduh, merinding gue. here are some of the highlights:behind us is the miniatures unfotunately my friend couldn't get the miniature's pics clearly since it was so dark down there.

anyway, our next stop is Taman Mini. first thing first, Museum IPTEK. soalnya biar nggak ngantuk dan bisa main-main. padahal nggak ngaruh juga. beberapa jam main-main bikin capek juga kan, jadinya tetep aja gue adys niya cemberut soalnya capek dan laper. padahal mainannya seru-seru banget sih. niya sama adys sempet nyobain sepeda yang satu tali itu. gue tadinya mau ikutan tp serem liat sepedanya adys sama niya goyang2 gitu. berat gue juga mentok. kan maksimum beratnya 50kg, nggak boleh lebih. adys 38, niya 44. gue 48!! jadi gue atuuuttt. akhirnya gue emte. tiketnya gue kasih niya, gue batal naik. hahaha. tapi sempet nyobain macem-macem dan itu seru banget. nyobain harpa tanpa dawai, listrik yang bikin rambut naik, main air, bikin gelombang tsunami, simulasi gempa, seru deh! tapi kan tetep aja yaaa capek.

abis itu tadinya mau ke museum air tawar dan lain-lain tapi males soalnya bayar-bayar lagi. terus mau naik gondola tapi sumpah yaaa hari itu panas banget. akhirnya kita cuma foto-foto di anjungan Bali, muter-muter, foto-foto di mobil pemadam kebakaran dan gue sempet kaget pas liat madagascar 2: escape to africa diputer di keong emas. hahaha. setau gue Keong emas muterin film-film dokumenter sama semi dokumenter gitu kan. lah kok tau2 ada madagascar? mungkin strategi juga kali untuk menarik minat pemirsa. haha. overall, muter-muter gitu doang capek banget lho. apalagi di museum IPTEK itu nguras tenaga karena main-main, lari kesana-kemari, tp ya bikin capek. jadi pas balik, badan uda lengket parah banget gitu deh. muka udah minyakan. rambut awut-awutan. gilaaaaaaa. tapi overall seru kok. yang bikin seru sih rame-ramenya ya. coba kalo gue sendirian, nangis kali gue. bosen, capek. foto adys nyobain sepeda satu tali. niya foto lo nggak gue masukin ya, soalnya nggak jelas semua. elo juga nggak jelas sih. jadi gue males. hahaha.

ini waktu simulasi gempa. jadi kita pura-puranya di ruang makan gitu, terus ruangannya digoyang2 kaya gempa. dan serem sih kalo kejadian beneran di rumah...kalo foto yang ini kan ceritanya kita mau ngibulin orang-orang sok-sok abis dari Bali rame-rame. tapi gagal. yaiyalah! mungkin banget gue ke bali pake kemeja sama legging! terus pada pake jeans, rapi-rapi, hahaha. gagal deh kita mau ngobohong.

well, overall sedih juga sih ngeliat wisata budaya seperti ini sekarang sepi sama anak-anak muda. waktu ke lubang buaya aja terlepas dari yang dateng dan sibuk nyatet-nyatet sebagai tugas sekolah, jarang banget pengunjung lepas seperti gue, temen-temen gue dan ibu-ibu yang mengucap istighfar tadi. malah padang rumputnya itu (ceilah berasa luas banget) dipake buat ngadem gitu sama anak-anak smp disekitar situ. dan gedung museum dua lantainya itu bener-bener nggak ada pengunjungnya, cuma rombongan gue doang yang cuma bertujuh ini hahahaha. padahal informasi di dalamnya itu banyak banget lho dan kalo di buku sejarah cuma bisa baca doang disini kita bisa sambil visualized the condition juga meskipun nggak seru-seru banget juga. hehe. in fact, emang secara keseluruhan lubang buaya sepi banget.
Taman mini juga gitu, sepinya pol. sampe waktu gue makan di cfc ayamnya abis terus gue nanya kan, "ayamnya abis? emang pada kemana mas ayamnya?" terus dijawabnya gini dong,"iya mbak kalo hari-hari biasa stock ayamnya emang dikit. paling kalo ada yang minta baru dibuat. soalnya disini kalo hari biasa kaya kuburan." HAHAHAHAHA. yaiyasih. bandingin deh sama do fun, atau PIM atau sency. buset jauh banget! kenapa ya? kenapa anak-anak muda -termasuk gue- emang cenderung nggak bangga sama wisata budaya kita sendiri? waktu ke taman mini juga sumpah gue bosennya uda parah banget. liat rumah-rumah khas daerah dan macem-macemnya tuh gue udah yang "he? males ah.". mau turun dari mobil aja uda males. mana gerah. bandingin sama gue jalan-jalan di mall. padahal juga cuma liat-liat doang tetep aja gue balik-balik lagi. bingung deh gue. salah dimananya ya tempat-tempat ini? beside the fact that masuk ke TMII nggak praktis kaya ke dufan. jadi di depan lo bayar, mau masuk ke tiap anjungan lo harus bayar-bayar lagi. per anjungan beda-beda. makin seru makin mahal. IPTEK tuh 15rb. makin sepi kaya taman burung cuma 7rb. makin males gue. hahahaha. sayang duit. tapi kenapa nggak sayang duit ya kalo nonton di XXI? tapi bayar buat liat kebudayaan sendiri gue males banget. hahaha. gue masih nggak tau jawabannya.

nggak heran ya kalo kebudayaan kita berkali-kali terancam diaku-aku malaysia. salah masyarakatnya sendiri juga. kalo anak muda dan orang-orang lainnya macam gue semua gini, mana bertahan itu kebudayaan yang sekian banyak? kadang alasan orang ke taman mini juga bukan buat wisata budaya, tapi buat berenang sama ngadem sama piknik. sama main di IPTEK. halah. terus giliran terdesak kaya kasus malaysia, semua baru pontang-panting. kelojotan. sebelum heboh batik mau direbut, segelintir banget orang pake batik. designer yang promosiin batik juga cuma yang tua2 gitu. poppy dharsono, ghea sukasah, ramli, adjie notonegoro. begitu batik heboh mau direbut, tiba-tiba aja semua acara dresscode-nya batik, itc penuh sama batik, kompetisi-kompetisi batik kontemporer buat perancang-perancang muda bermunculan. eh tiba-tiba itu jadi trend semata aja. sekarang batik mulai terpendam lagi. begitu juga dengan jenis-jenis kesenian budaya lainnya. kita hanya bisa berfikir rasional saat terdesak. begitu keadaan mendesak itu lewat, semua balik ke asal. asal yang asal-asalan. hahaha.

The three first people who congratulate me are...

Directly: My brother, Banu. It was funny though since we never had a sensitive relation before. We always tell each other about our friends, our love, our stories but we nener hugged, never kissed one another, never said sorry or those other sweet relations. But later that night, he came to my room, said happy birthday to me, kissed my cheeks and said sorry that he couldn't give me any present this year. haha it's ok brother. I'm happy enough without any present.

Phone: Ashley, my bestfriend since I'm on my junior high school. thanks for your pray.

Sms: surprisingly, It's Aswin. thanks for your time and attention to me, Win.

and I got a surprised later this day.

cheers everybody! have a very great wonderful day!

Ini nih!

Lo pernah denger ini nggak??

Time will do it works, but the chance is ours to make.

Dan ini kurang lebih sama kan sama kalimat Tuhan tidak akan merubah nasib kaumnya kecuali mereka juga merubah nasib mereka sendiri apa gimanaaa gitu gue lupa kata2 persisnya. dan yaaaaaaa heeeyyy teman2 gue yang sedang berputus asa (termasuk gue juga sih). Tuhan memang akan membantu, luck and time juga have their own roles. tapi, semuanya kuncinya itu satu, USAHA.

dan gue sebel sih, kenapa some people have to work their ass off to get something while on the other hand, there are people who get everything they want without a single effort??

tapi namanya juga dunia ya. memang terkadang tidak adil.

this shoes are killing me!!

I bought this shoes couple of months ago because I think it will fit my short legs perfectly and I want to be the belle of the ball in certain events in my campus which required you to wear high heels. and yes, my shoes were the center of attention back in the day when I'm sure everyone had no idea how much pain it caused me. It's worth the pain though and it's worth the price because everyone complimented the shoes.

I just got back from my friend's wedding ceremony and I wore this shoes, after the ceremony me and my friends went to the karaoke lounge and I wore these shoes all along. and THE SHOES IS KILLING ME!! I feel an enormous pain on my feet. I have to wear it more often so maybe later my feet will get used to it. I walked like a robot. It hurts so much FUCKER. but again, yeeeeeeessss i admit it's worth the pain and the price. Oh my god it's so hard to be beautiful.

eww.

I don't know why so many people are obsessed to be socialite. It seems so shallow. hey, no offense, I know some of the socialite's girls also have a majorly good grades and great business skills and I don't think there's anymore rules like beautiful girl got no brain or smart girls are ugly. no. I think these days there are so many girls around who has everything in theirselves. again, simply it's just luck. and I appreciate them who are friggin' smart, beautiful and using their brains for usefull acts. not just for party or shopping. I do appreciate them. but when someone from a regular caste -just like me- had a dream for being a socialite just because they got wowed by their blink2 life, I think it's too shallow. and I pity them. esp when those dreams come without brains, talents or even hard work. I just wanna say, goodluck with your dreams and don't blame me if later I laugh so hard on you when we meet again and what I see is just you, without significant changes. haha.

I will share my dreams.

Not quite recently, one of my friends, posted her plans for her wedding party on her blog. it's not like she's gonna do it in one or two years ahead but there's nothing wrong to keep on dreaming and sharing it with people right?? and oh, us, girls, don't we all like those all sort of planning every little detail in a party?? since the 17 birthday bash is not my field anymore, so it's my turn to share my wedding dreams to you! hihihi. it's fun it's fun!

First, the concept. I never liked those traditional ceremonies in Indonesia. it seems boring, old and a waste of money for me esp for inviting the strangers part. yea, sometimes people invite up to one thousand or more guests just to make the bride and the groom heavily tired at the end of the day for hand shaking with people they don't even know who. it's their day, but they have no fun in it. so, my concept will be, in the morning the will be akad nikah for families and relatives including my parents' friends and relatives whom I don't even know some of them. and then, at night, it will be my private party for our closest friends and relatives for maximum 500 person. I already knew the place. it's in DECANTER!! yeay! it's a great wine tasting place with a homey situation in Kuningan Plaza. and you certainly don't need a decorator! ot even preston bailey, hey, no offense to everyone, but I'd rather spend my money for honeymooning all around the world.

And it will be western-like party where me and my groom will all go mingle with the guests all night long. and we will all singing and dancing together. of course there will be my first dance with my dad, and then my husband taken over and everyone will all go slow dancing together. haha. yeah, I want it to be relaxing event.
and I will not wear all those kebaya that are very gerah! for the dress I don't like something too lebay but I don't like something too simple either. I like a simple dress that clearly showing my curves and it has to be beautiful with all the beads and embroideries. I hope it will be from my favourite designer, Valentino, that will make me feel sexy or from monique lhuiller who will turn me into a one day princess. maybe some like it will work.


I will not bun my hair. I will just let it all hang with the big wave on it. so, it'll be very fun!! unfortunately, I don't know who is the groom just yet. haha. ah and for you who don't know, I have this strange obsession towards wedding since I was a child. so, now you know why I post this.

a little jaded.

I've seen the future in the tracks of your tears
Our love, girl, is going through changes
I don't know if I'm alive, dead, dying or just a little jaded.

The Stone Roses - Tears.

Put, seru ya ternyata bikin bulletin board things ini.haha.

001. Real name : Dwitya Indiana Basitha
002. Like it? : loves it
003. Nickname(s) : Babas, waci, baskin, baskutil, basokit--> ini yang paling gue benci.
004. Status : currently single and looking
005. Zodiac sign : gemini
006. Male or female : female
007. Elementary : SD Asy-syafiiyah 02.
008. Middle School : SMP Al-Azhar Kemang Pratama
009. High School : SMA Al-Azhar Kemang Pratama
010. Hair color : black
011. Long or short : very short.
012. Eye color : black
013. Weight : 46 kg
014. Height : 153 cm
015. Righty or lefty : righty
016. Loud or Quiet : loud
017. Sweats or Jeans : jeans of course
018. Phone or Camera : phone
019. Health freak : hell no
020. Piercings? : yes
021. Do you have a crush on someone? : yes,definitely!
022. Eat or Drink : drink
023. Purse or Backpack : backpack
024. Tattoos : I will someday when I find the space in my religion's rules.
025. Do You Like Yourself? : no
026. Current worry? : skripsi kapan selesainya ini HEY??

THIS OR THAT:
027. Orange or Apple Juice? : orange juice
028. Night or Day? : night
029. Sun or Moon? : moon
030. TV or Internet? : internet
031.PlayStation or XBox? : play station
032. Kiss or Hug? : hug
033. Iguana or Turtle? : turtles
034. Spider or Bee? : bee
035. Fall or Spring? : spring
036. Limewire or iTunes? : iTunes.
037. Soccer or Baseball? : soccer. at least i like to watch it.

FIRSTS:
038. First surgery : never. thanks God never.
039. First piercing : when I was still I baby I guess.
040. First best friend : Asti. still in kindergarten. I don't even know where the hell she is since i'm on my elementary school.
041. First Sport? : gymnastics
042. First award : fashion show when i was in elementary school.
043. First crush : Bayu. Hey, every girl on my elementary school likes him!!
044. First pet : fishes.
045. First big vacation : Singapore, i think
046. First big birthday : I don't remember since every single birthday of mine was always celebrated when I was a child.

CURRENTLY:
047. Eating : raisins. it's not fattening.
048. Drinking : mineral water
049. I'm about to : trashing myself on the net
050. Listening to : Kelly Sweet - Raincoats. thanks wita!
051. Singing? : Dubstar - Star
052. Typing? : this
053. Waiting for : some sms from guy I like.

YOUR FUTURE:
054. Want kids? : yes. many of them.
055. When? : I don't know yet.
056. Want to get married? : of course.
057. When? : I hope it will be next year or this year if it's possible. wish me some luck would you?
058. Where Do You Want To Live? : Italy for sure.
059. Careers in mind : News Caster, Editor in Chief in some lifestyle magazine, build my own line in retail industry.
060. What Did You Want To Be When You Were Little? : Miss Universe. Lol.
061. Mellow Future Or Wild? : WILD!
062. Something You Would Never Try? : touch fowls, dead or alive!!

WHICH IS BETTER WITH BOY?
063. Lips or eyes : lips
064. Shorter or taller? : much taller of course
065. Romantic or spontaneous : romantic
066. Nice stomach or nice arms : nice arms
067. Sensitive or loud : sensitive
068. Hook-up or relationship : relationship with a clear commitment
069. Trouble maker or hesitant : hesitant
070. Hugging or Kissing? : kissing
071. Tan Skinned or Light? : light skin. from some certain race if it's possible. haha.
072. Dark or Light Hair? : dark
073. Muscular or Normal? : normal

HAVE YOU EVER:
074. Lost glasses/contacts : right about now
075. Ran away from home : when I was in senior high. I hate my home's condition that time.
076. Held a gun/knife for self defense? : thank god, no
077. Killed somebody : HELL NO!
078. Broken someone's heart : definitely, yes
079. Been arrested : thank god again, no
080. Cried when someone died : my grandfather. it was the hardest time of my life
081. Kissed A Stranger? : yes and it's funny
082. Climbed Up A Tree? : I forget I think yes
083. Liked A Friend As More Than A Friend? : yes sometimes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
084. Yourself : at times
085. Miracles : no. I do believe in hard work and luck
086. Love at first sight : no. like at the first sight maybe
087. Heaven : yes
088. Santa Claus : no but I wish they were real. I mean, they are the positive passions of christmas!
089. Kiss on the first date : yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
090. Is there one person you want to be with right now : yes... heeyyy little booyyy I MISS YOU A HELL LOT MORE THAN BEFORE. fa ker
091. Do You Like Someone? : yes
092. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : no, I'm being unproductive
093. Do you believe in God : yes of course

LASTS
094. Recieved/Sent Text Message : vira
095. Received Call : Ino
096. Call Made? : Ashlei
097. Comment On MySpace? : I don't know since I never open my goddamn myspace account I don't even know the password
098. Missed Call? : Prita
099. Person You Hung out With? : Jablay,Gilang,Risky

100. tag tag tag tag tag

Religion Issues.

I created this post based on my -let's just say- observation towards people who always think they're right and spread their beliefs throughout every people. they think in this world there's no right or wrong. No one can guarantee that heaven, hell, or even God is truly exist, religion is useless since it makes good people doing bad things and vice versa. and they try to convince people to have the same perspective and it sickened me.

well, here's what I thought. I agree that in this world there's nothing wrong or right and there's nothing to be really exact. but here's the thing, make it simple, then just do what you think it's right and best. and don't try to bring it around to people trying to convince them to have the same belief. it really is sucks since it's everybody's right to choose what's best for themselves.

YIPPIYAAYYY!!!!

Holidays are within two weeks to be exact and I have LOTS to do. and finding new boyriend is not included in my itinerary. this is my other list about things I need to do on my holiday. (I find this making wish list thing is quite amusing. haha). So, here it goes:

1. Getting my skripshit done perfectly. you can do it!!!
2. Majoring Italian or taking French lessons again, I haven't made my mind yet.
3. Taking IELTS class in TBI. yuck! Hey, I know English is very important but I hate the competition part. there are so many people doing very good in English which pushes you to do better than them. yeah, I never liked that part.
4. Finding another Chuck Palahniuk's books, beside Rant. I didn't know he is well-known here since I haven't heard any of my friends reading his books.
5. Made beautiful dresses out of the fabrics I bought months ago.
6. Gather up with my bestfriends.
7. I will definitely do that injection. Mom, I've made up my mind. I want to do that injection as soon as possible.
8. Well, if it's possible, I want to travel to another country.
9. straightening my bangs. but I haven't made my mind just yet whether it's that important or not.
10. Do more sports and get in shape.

this list may increase or decrease depends on the situation. but right now these are the things pop out in my head spontaneously. Hope I can fill at least 5 out of ten and if that'll really happen, I'll consider myself very lucky. *smooches*