I See Me Now...

Yeah, I've been quite miserable lately and i think i need a sudden extreme makeover. I see me now:

1. I can't sleep before 2 AM. Too many unimportant thoughts hanging around in my mind. heartbreaking thoughts disturbed me as hell. I don't know how to stop this fucking insomnia. I've tried to sleep earlier but it'll never work i guess.

2. I eat like a giant prostitute (what does it even mean? i don't know i just shout it out. haha.) My belly getting bigger. sweet and salt foods back to back everyday. I can't stop it either. I don't know why I always feel hungry.

3. I never combed my hair and people criticized the way i dressed, the way my hair looks like, basically the way i look. Cause i didn't feel the need to look good lately because i know no one to impress. It's the shape of my hopelessness I think.

4. I bought things i don't need. luxurious things to substitute this numb.

5. I never touched my thesis anymore simply just because i hate it. (ps: people, if you want to put your comment in this note, please DO NOT COMMENT ON THIS POINT. I WILL HATE YOU FOREVER AND EVER SERIOUSLY.)

6. I feel this high level of stress I don't need to explain. DISASTER is the only word describes it the best.

7. I start smoking and drinking again. not in addictive level but it's bad enough.

FUCK YOU!