four days of nothingness.

Working has been sooooo boring lately but thanks God I have 4 days holiday in a row so I can rest a bit. But I have to cope with reality that I cannot go to Lombok this holiday, yeah blame it on the ticket rate. So, I have to stay around, while my family will leave Jakarta for Malang start in 11th September. Yeah, being alone in my house sounds sooooo exciting! But, I've plan. So, I made this little project called 'Four Days of Nothingness' where I have to make this four days less 'nyampah' eventhough I have to be alone in my house. And I'm gonna report my activities here, every single day. Actually, this is day one and I already made a progress. So tomorrow has to be more exciting. yay!

calm down. I'll be right back because I have to eat first. But I'm gonna share this happy news to you all later THIS night and I can't waiiitttt :D

Jujur gue sangat terganggu dengan lagu terbaru Agnes Monica dimana dia harus teriak-teriak nggak penting dan merusak keseluruhan lagu. To make it worst, every single radio station play it sepanjang gue dalam perjalanan. AAARRRRGGGGHHH!!! Stop showing off your voice, Missy! I'm not even impressed. You just make it even more sounds 'lebay' than it should be. Yeah, maybe I'm just one crazy girl who don't like you at all among all those freaking people who thinks you have a good voice.

okay. start to miss my point. :|

See you guys later!

kenapa satu kata maaf harus cukup?

memangnya memori itu bisa terhapus dengan maaf ya?
kalau kesalahan yang sama diulang berkali-kali,
apa maaf itu sudah cukup?
Terus kalo ada yang lebih lagi dari maaf, apa dong namanya? Bukan, bukan ampun. Ampun itu sepertinya lebih ke konteks manusia dan Tuhan atau tuan dengan budaknya.
Tapi seharusnya ada yang lebih dari maaf. seharusnya ada. karena maaf saja tidak cukup ternyata. Mungkin tindakan nyata kali ya? Tindakan nyata yang juga bisa disebut usaha.
Berlebihan?
Tidak juga. Coba diputar balikkan posisinya.
Sekali ini saya benar-benar muak dengan masalah 4L ini. Soal Lu Lagi Lu Lagi masalahnya.
Bisa nggak give me a break dan menjaga sikap?
saya juga bisa lakukan apapun yang saya mau.

hmm...
Tadinya udah mantep banget mau nulis.
Dengan segenap ide yang siap diluncurkan dalam uraian panjang lebar.
Tapi nggak jadi.
I think it's too harsh.
Eventhough I know this harsh reality is true.
and I'm just sick of these people. well, sometimes. Unfortunately, some of them happen to be my friends. some of them happen to, well, add more spice to my relationships.
Well well people. Take a look at yourself in the mirror before talking.
Tapi sebenernya takut kualat sih.
Takut menjadi bagian dari mereka.
Hahahahahaha.
eh astaghfirullaaahhh
bulan puasaaaaa
tp nggak tahan.
zzzzzzzzzz.

reminder.

List of things to do and I mean to REALLY do it and not just another crap list:

1. re-arrange my bookshelf. yup mine starts to get overloaded with my new books. And I have to re-arrange it according to its author and my most favorite collections. Books I like the most will placed at the very top of the shelf and it's going down to my less favorite collections at the very bottom.
Believe it or not, Indonesian author included at the top collections of course with their chicklit books and all. You know what, I've compared the chicklit from Indonesia and other countries such as Europe or US and I can tell Indonesian female authors are waaaayyyyyy smarter than them. our Indonesian chicklits are better than the foreigners one. It could totally bring up some cool social topics and conversation rather than just problems about break-up, make-up, sex and find a new guy. so, do not underestimate the power of putih abu-abu. lho? hahaha. maksudnya do not underestimate Indonesian's literature. Ok, started to miss my point. next!

2. Make another brownies. It's been awhile since the last time I bake my own cake and freeze my own pudding. Post fasting month seems like the perfect time to start to cook again. brownies brownies, I promise I'm gonna make another you in September. :-) whoever break up with me, will soooooooooooo regret it. hahahahaha. no no. kidding. you wouldn't like my brownies anyway. sometimes it tasted weird. hehe. well i'm gonna eat them and make myself sooooo faaaaaatttt 'till no one would recognize me anymore.

3. Find another bikini. ticket to lombok has been booked, still don't know if it's gonna happen. Apart from that, I really need a new bikini. Correction, not 'need' but 'want'. I have 1 in white paradise motif and another in purple rainbow bikini. still I want something more decent to wear. the first one's not really comfortable and the second one made of fabrics so it's no good to use it to swim.

4. Read more papers and updating current issues of this country. come on come on! be a smart woman and a good friend of discussion! *clap clap*

5. Write more meaningful post. rather than just mourning my lost. oh come on giiirrrlll..... chin up! You need to get your glow back.

6. Find 'Hari Untuk Amanda' DVD. some people said it is really sad and I'm totally in the mood to make my eyes swollen. Let's have some melancholic weekend everyone!

7. Starts to write another long story. The timing's just perfect. couple of days ago I watched Stranger Than Fiction, I think it's the only serious movie Will Ferrel has ever made. Anyway Emma Thompson's character makes me miss writing stories. And the movie just great. For some people, maybe it's boring and rather absurd. But I agree that every story in a book represents the real story of someone's real life. It only has a unique way of showing it. you should watch it for yourself and don't be confused if it's a major boring to you. haha. no no it's not that bad. But hell yeah I miss quality time with my laptop. I'm gonna take you home tonight, laptop tanpa nama. :-)

seperti kentang ya cuma tujuh? nggak apa-apa deh. yang lain menyusul. semoga terlaksana!

miauw.

Masiiihhh aja basss... basss...
Masiiih aja jealous.
Masiiih aja kaypoh.
by the way I just knew that kaypoh means kepo in cantonese or something.
funny how they have a similar pronunciation and a similar meaning while they're coming from two totally different areas.
Have a great day everyone!

mourn.

Have you met a new girl?
Yesterday, someone asked me out. the one whom I canceled, because I chose to see you.
A smart girl who really wants to move on, would've said 'yes' because this might be the chance to really move on.
And I said, 'no. I can't.'
I am not ready.
There's something really wrong with my brain.

I rarely read science-fiction or fantasy books in English. I prefer to watch them as a movie rather than reading page by page of the book forcing my brain to visualize every single detail in it where I was sure it's gonna be exhausting. Like, when you see Coraline (one of Neil Gaiman's masterpiece FYI) in animation movies, it's wonderful. All the dreamy plants, the 'other family' figures, Mr. bobinsky's circus, it were all unbeatable. But if I have to read it, first, I have to read it, translate it, picture it equals to exhaustion. so If I have to read fantasy books, I prefer the Indonesian one. Easy to understand, and not needed so much work just to visualize it perfectly. well, now, this Neil Gaiman's "Fragile Things" really do change my perception.

One month ago, Wita forced me to buy this book just because she wanted to buy "Love The One You're With" (which later she regretted haha) so when she finishes her book, she could borrow mine. Yeah, smart way, Girl. So half heartedly, I bought this book. When I first read it, ok, I have a hard time understanding his language and imagining it at the same time. So I put it down for a couple a days until I completely ran out of 'what to do' so I continued reading it. up to the 3rd stories, I cannot put it down. It's a darker book and I loooove this one. Full of ghosts, zombies, urband legend, unexplainable stories, monsters, magical circus and everything. I mean this is really good. you'll crammed your head with imagination but it's worth it. Too bad they're just short stories and poems so some of all the endings are hanging in mid air. I didn't really read the poems simply because I couldn't understand it. but they have great conceptions. one of the poems (forgot the exact titles) tells the life of a man through his blab when his drunk, the others are characters of a tarot card, and he tried to explain the characters of human through ladies. Hell I am lost of words to describe it. Magically awesome.

Reading and imagining it at the same time wasn't so bad afterall.
I bought the one which looks exactly like this and when I searched it on the internet, it's the greatest cover of the others. Happy reading everyone! :-)

Just as what I thought it would be, my mom wouldn't let me go out from my work to let me have my little fun abroad. Risking something too big and important (my job) for something too short and unimportant. Or, if I still want to go. I have to sell my car which will pissing off my brother. well apart from that, I wouldn't sacrifice my family just for my own good anyway.

well, another dream falling apart.

hey you guys with a multimillion dollar daddy. you should be thankful, kid.

fuck you guys for being so lucky.

remind me why I should do the interview? Just to get fail? failed relationship. failed job. failed family. failed dreams. FAIL. I got it now. My life is a one hell of a joke.

"i said go for it! you'll find a new job.
kalo rejeki juga ga kemana kan? ;p "

kenapa harus mbak dita yang ngomong gini sih, mbak? kenapa bukan mama? thanks for the support anyway. ;-(

hahaha ga bisa cerita ke siapa-siapa kan. kampret. share disini aja deh. Baiklah teman-teman penyimak blog yang saya cintai, hari Sabtu besok mau interview AIESEC. Aduh kalo misalkan keterima, this is once in a lifetime chance sih. Kapan lagiiiii kapan lagiiii ke luar negeri serba ditangguuunggggg.... tapi kerjaan aing kumaha? nanti kalo pergi belum tentu aing bisa balik lagi kemari kerja di kantor ini. AAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!! But I want this...

"Mom, I want to teach children. I want to see the world."

(my own words. echoing inside my head.)

ok, it really cracked me up

one perfect post-breakup song:

Pink

the Carey Hart part is pretty cute anyway. Pink wrote this song when they decided to get divorced and published later when they're get back together. awww... cute!

Maaf kalau setelah sekian lama tidak menulis, saya malah balik dengan tulisan curhat sampah nggak penting ini. Tadinya mau nulis di buku tapi tangan saya pegel. :D
Lagipula saya pernah baca di suatu tempat, rasa sakit hati, marah dan kecewa memang lebih mendorong seseorang menjadi produktif ketimbang rasa bahagia yang justru membuat orang semakin terlena.

lumayan mengocok perut.

babas : hari di bb ga bs diganti ya?
babas : tanggalku salah masak
babas : kamis, 12 agustus 2010
rinov : settingan waktunya aja
rinov : kan ada pilihan GMTnya
babas : harinya ga bs diganti
babas : pilih apa?
rinov : bangkok
babas : bener kok bangkok
rinov : masa sih
rinov : hmm
babas: benaran
babas : ntar kamu lokit dah
rinov : skrg emg hari kamis, tanggal 12 Agustus 2010
rinov : *sigh*
babasm : ini kan selasa
babas : :|
rinov : mabok maneh!!
babas : cik ini selasa
babas : eh
babas : ini kamis ya?
babas : kok kamis sih?
rinov : thursday!
rinov : bukan TUEsday
babas : cik beneran ini kamis?
rinov : bener
rinov : mabok
babas : terus selasa sm rabu aku ngapain aja?
rinov : idih skip
babas : jd ini beneran kamis?
babas : lho?
rinov : iyeh!
babas : aku kira ini baru hari selasa
babas : puasa hari senin
babas : :D
rinov : ngaco
babas : astaghfirullah
rinov : nyimeng mulu

hahahahahaaa maafin otak aku yang udah dol ini ya.

everyday randomness.

Guy : "She's hot."
Girl : "She's slut."

Girl : "He's cute."
Guy : "He's gay."

The ever so different point of view. Classic.

everybody happy?????

mati ajalah saya. katanya kalo dicabut nyawanya seluruh tubuhnya terasa dingin kan? ya baguslah... sering-sering latihan dicabut nyawa kaya sekarang.

morning!

Masih pagi dan beberapa orang masih meributkan perpindahan ibukota Indonesia ke Palangkaraya. Memang ya Palangkaraya dan Makassar itu terlihat paling berpotensi karena mereka sedang sangat berkembang, apalagi kalo konsep ibukotanya dijadiin satu sama pusat pemerintahan juga.

Tapi tapi tapi... kenapa nggak Papua aja ya? Yang namanya ibukota itu kan seperti landmark dari suatu negara tertentu. Yang paling dilihat, dan biasanya jadi tujuan utama turis-turis datang ke Indonesia. Untuk tempat seperti itu, kayanya butuh perencanaan tata kota yang sangat matang nggak sih, untuk menanggulangi masalah banjir, polusi, macet dan lain-lain. Dan untuk 'membangun ulang' sebuah ibukota, seharusnya membutuhkan lahan yang sebagian besar masih virgin untuk bisa membangun sarana dan prasarana yang tidak hanya pantas, tapi juga outstanding. Lagipula, untuk pusat-pusat hiburan itu juga nggak harus berbentuk gedung-gedung pusat perbelanjaan yang sekarang menjamur di Jakarta kan? Kenapa nggak diperbanyak museum, atau konservatori alam yang sekalian bisa menjadikan lingkungan lebih sehat? Jadi penduduk ibukota nggak usah jauh-jauh ke Bogor kalau mau merasa lebih asri. Memang di Papua masih banyak penduduk asli yang tergolong primitif, tapi mereka justru bisa menjadi contoh budaya asli Indonesia yang juga menunjukkan sebagian kecil dari kebudayaan Indonesia yang sangat kaya. Seperti suku Aborigin di Australia yang justru membuat para turis tertarik melihat aksi-aksi tradisional mereka dan bahkan berlomba untuk foto bersama. Tidak seperti Jakarta yang sudah terlalu ter-westernisasi.

Wilayah yang berbatasan dengan Benua Australia juga akan mempermudah hubungan kerja bilateral Indonesia dengan negara yang maju. Ditilik dari kasus orang Papua yang nekat menyebrang ke Australia dan meminta suaka, pemerintah Australia nampaknya cukup care kok untuk menjalin kerjasama yang baik dengan negara ini. Dan ini merupakan langkah yang baik untuk follow up kerangka kerjasama Indonesia dengan Autralia yang dilakukan Bapak Marty Natalegawa (OMG I'm your HUGE FANS, Sir!) dengan PM Australia, Julia Gillard, tentang penguatan kemitraan strategis RI-Australia dalam berbagai kepentingan strategis dan kebijakan luar negeri, termasuk bantuan pembangunan, penegakan hukum, pengelolaan bencana, anti-terorisme, perubahan iklim dan penyelundupan manusia. Bidang yang menjadi main concern Australia tidak hanya masalah ekonomi, namun juga Pendidikan Indonesia yang masih sangat terbengkalai. Terbukti mereka turut serta dalam pembangunan 2000 sekolah di negara ini, dan beberapa dari sekolah-sekolah itu malah berbentuk madrasah.

See? Papua itu lebih cocok, setidaknya menurut saya. Tapi dananya kan gimana? Dan kalaupun ada, lebih baik dialokasikan untuk pembenahan struktur fasilitas demi masyarakat nggak sih? Pendidikan dan kesehatan. Penyuluhan mengenai pentingnya pendidikan dan minat baca ke desa-desa, membangun sekolah gratis di pedalaman atau bersubsidi di daerah, perbaikan kesejahteraan tenaga pengajar, fasilitas kesehatan gratis tanpa syarat berderet dan birokrasi rumit, masih banyaklah yang jadi PR dibanding sekedar mindah-mindahin ibukota. Tapi gimana kalo anggota DPR-nya aja tukang bolos semua? Hahaha. Gaji saya aja deh Pak, Bu. Saya mau kok duduk rapat berjam-jam untuk membangun kerangka kerja yang baik demi kemajuan negeri ini.

Kadang saya suka penasaran lho rasanya jadi anggota DPR. Bukan karena sok-sok idealis mau membangun negeri ini ya. Tapi saya ingin tahu pikiran licik mayoritas di dalam sana yang akhirnya menggeser idealisme-idealisme yang dimiliki wakil rakyat yang kompeten. Halah, capek-capek saya ngomong paling rencana perbaikan negara ini juga cuma wacana wacana wacana. ketebak bangetlah indonesia.

Berat bener ya? Tambah sakit dah gua.

Sarasvati

Sarasvati - Oh I Never Knew

Too bad I can't find a decent version of this record but it is that beautiful and I'm planning on buying Sarasvati's album tonight, that's IF I have time to go to Aksara. I'm not a big fan of Homogenic but I think Risa's solo album will do just great. Hey, Indonesia needs more great solo artists with a head, not just a face and a crap voice, or a copycat. Yes and I do agree, her angelic voice... what a gift!

ps: Waktu nonton video ini dan denger suara cowok yang familiar, gue bertanya-tanya, is that Tulus? Dan ketika sosoknya keluar, I think yes, that's Tulus without his glasses on. hahaha. Gila ya teman-teman saya, kalian makan apa sih kok kariernya hebat-hebat benar?

So, is this how I treat you when you're having a hard time, eh?

thanks, man. :-)

stalk

Women are the cruelest creatures on earth when it comes to stalking.
Yeah I've heard this sentence before and yes, it is true.
Kenapa ya perempuan itu suka pengen-pengen tau yang nggak penting, yang akhirnya menyakiti diri sendiri dan kemudian nyesel sendiri karena harusnya mending nggak tau apa-apa.
Aaaaaaaarrrgggghhhhh.
Goblok.
Perempuan goblok. termasuk saya. hahaha.
Iya, in my life, I've met million girls (lebay haha) who are very strong in life but hell when it comes to heartbreaking issues, even the strongest girl in the world drop their tears.
Ya, perempuan ditakdirkan berperangai lemah lembut.
Yeah right, LEMAH lembut.
Sebodoh-bodohnya kalimat dan sebenci-bencinya saya dengan istilah "men are pigs, and women are pig lovers" saya harus akui itu benar.
Saya sering bilang saya nggak mau jadi perempuan lemah apalagi lembut, dan saya nggak mau jadi perempuan goblok demi laki-laki. Paling nggak mau. Tapi emang hal yang paling nggak mau dilakukan itu selalu dikasih cobaannya dulu and here I am a stupid woman all over again.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Nggak mau mikirin lagi ah.
Nggak mau cari-cari tau lagi.
Kalo kata Vira, "Mana bisyaaaaa..."
Hahaha.
Ya gimana ya nyet.
Bisa deh...
eh nggak tau..
hahahahaha.

blabbing through old pictures

Ini gue inget banget kita lagi ikutan seminar internasional "The Rich Subsidizing The Poor", makanya bajunya rapi-rapi gitu (eh gue sih kayanya tetep kurang rapi ya, seperti biasa hahaha). Ketika coffee break, kita foto-foto gitu kan. Kesepakatannya sih 'gayanya yang seru dong', tapi entah kenapa gue sama Jablay ya begitu-begitu aja. Pas fotonya udah jadi,
"Yahhh.... kok elo berdua biasa aja sih.. katanya yang seru..." Olla (dengan muka sedih) "BHUAHAHAHAHAHA"
ya gaya seru kan bukan berarti harus ngeremes pantat Gerry juga ol... -__-



iya, ini Bhagas. hahahaha. sok sok mau bikin tugas Kewarganegaraan di kosan gue endingnya malah foto-foto sampah terus makan ager-ager. ahahahahaha. terus besoknya nggak ngumpulin tugas, jadilah KWN gue B dengan gemilang.


Gila ya, gue baru sadar ternyata yes I am that small.

Ini siapa hayooo? Iya, ini sukma! AHAHAHAHA. pasca pembuatan video ular berbisa yang sangat legendaris itu.


tenang tenang... foto gue juga ada kok... eh muka gua agak bernuansa chubby dog gitu nggak sih?? Shit.

kalo gue beneran kaya gini, kalian akan senang, shock, atau pingsan? Emak gue sih pasti akan langsung sujud sembah syukur anak perempuan satu-satunya bertaubat dan meninggalkan baju-baju laknat gue selama ini. hahahaha.