I was growing up in a religious institutions as a kid and a teenager. I went through some famous muslim schools which later make me so tired of those renungan rohani things. The thing where you have to sit down on the floor, bowing to the ground, closing your eyes then you hear one of your mentors told you some sad stories, about how you'd been a pain in the ass to your parents, how you'd been a sinner etc etc. i mean, none of that is wrong and I do believe they have a good intentions showing it. But i'm sick of those crying voice. you knoe the one that goes "huuuhuuu..." or "hiks hiks..." or everything. I've felt like biggest sinner ever in some part of my life but I never felt so close to god like when I'm alone and chanting my prayers alone, only me and HIM know. but hearing those snorting voices made me angry like, 'ganggu banget si lo?' haha sorry if i'm too harsh. hahaha. but it really is the fact.
maybe it's based on the fact that i'm bored shitless. i went to this religious seminary at my mom's office and it's fun. WAY MORE FUN than what i've thought. and i've absorbed so many new informations and knowledges i've never known before. but it was sooo loooong. we started at 8 in the morning where I've arrived at the location at 7 am. then we go all the way till 7 pm. i literally want to die. tired. i enjoyed the renungan rohani part cause i think it made you realized your sins but then i'm done with all those snorting voices. HAAAAA!!!
I went through a lotta these for the rest of mylife resulting numb feelings toward sensitive issues like these. I was not crying not even a single tears. I just wanted to go home for that I couldn't concentrate. hahaha
I went through a lotta these for the rest of mylife resulting numb feelings toward sensitive issues like these. I was not crying not even a single tears. I just wanted to go home for that I couldn't concentrate. hahaha
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