Lie.

I don't understand why people -including me- have to lie sometime. I mean, is there such thing like white lie? All I see from a lie is, people try to save themselves from catastrophe. But don't you think it isn't fair? It isn't fair for the person you lied to. I lied to people, most of the time it was my families i lied to. well, I didn't exactly tell lies, but I stirred my word so it sounded like it wasn't my fault. teeheee.. I know that was utterly bad. But what do you want me to do? See? Lying is just a form of self savior. no matter how hard i tried to prove myself that i was lying for the sake of everybody's goodness, i'd end up proving that i'm a bad person. zzzzzzzzzz... no matter how little the lies were, you see small things really do make a difference.

And i don't know why i have to be such an emotional bitch. and relationships are just not for a person like me. Relationships could be the total nervewrecking. Mantra.... mantra... sekarang sedang berusaha mengingat mantra... 'lahir sendirian.. mati dikubur sendirian.. hidup juga harus mandiri..' ayoo... think like that! think like that!!

oh and, karma's not a bitch. It's a reminder how bitchy you were before.

All in all, being grown ups are sucks. It would be wonderful if God allowed me to be an eternal infant. ok, that's weird.