Sunday, June 27, 2010
Based On?
What is your relationship based on?
If it's love, I have plenty. But Patty Smith says something along the lines of Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough in one of her songs, and unfortunately I have to agree with her. So, I'm sure love is just the small part of it.
If it's trust, I have... well... none. That's bad remembering some people think trust is a main component for relationship otherwise it won't work. At least it won't work well.
If it's honesty, well I already try to gave my best. But I don't know about the other person. And I think, trust intertwined with honesty to create a healthy and loyal relationship. So how could you trust someone, without honesty in it?
If it's support, then it's awesome.
If it's respect, well I have to work on that one since I lose control everytime I got mad. And I can't treat other people that way. But if I may defend myself, I do that because someone hurt me so bad. if i may not defend myself, then consider me guilty.
If it's sex, well without having so much to say, relationship based on just only sex is the unhealthy one. Agree?
If it's passion. I don't know if it's still like what it used to. Everyone wants to be passionate about everything but we're all just human afterall. We got tired, and we got bored. Damn.
All in all, you don't work on a relationship. If you do, then something must be wrong.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
weakness.
Gue temperamental sih, tapi bukannya gue berhak tau? Dan bukannya gue udah berusaha transparan juga?
Begini ini nih, innnniiii yang gue maksud dengan people slowly forgetting the fairness concept once they
got into relationships. Errrr, Vira Arvianda, berhubung td malem kita bbman,
Pasti lo setuju sama gue. Benci kan lo kalo kelemahan lo akan lawan jenis masssssssssiiiiiihhhhh aja ga ilang. I was way more stronger back then when I don't have the word '+boyfriend' at the back of my name.
Feminis feminis nanggung. Blurgh.
"I respect all those people who hate me because...
my "middle-finger" rises up to salute them."
-ihatequotes
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
sweetest surprise.
"I always loved knowing what people want to do with their future. Their dreams, vision, desires, etc and seeing my best friend to actually want to become a journalist brings a smile to my face. Here’s an excerpt from her post:
Saya memang tidak into politics, tapi saya mau belajar. Tata bahasa saya mungkin masih belepotan, tapi kalimat ‘willing to learn’ di dalam CV saya bukan basa-basi kok. Saya berniat benar-benar belajar. Kalau sudah tercapai, saya ingin mewujudkan cita-cita saya yang lain lagi, membuat sebuah buku. Tapi itu masih lama, saya ingin orang menyebut saya sebagai ‘wartawati’ dulu, baru sebuah buku berkualitas akan menyusul di belakangnya. Pasti orang-orang di sekitar saya bangga ya kalau impian saya terwujud? Iya, itu yang selalu saya inginkan. Karena saya yang sekarang sepertinya blm bisa dibanggakan. Belum ada yang bisa dipamerkan. Bukan berarti ingin pamer, tapi saya ingin mereka bangga memperkenalkan saya pada dunianya. Lah, jadi curhat. Hihihihi. Ya maaf ya kan memang sedang melankolis.
Singkat cerita, saya berencana meninggalkan posisi dengan bayaran menggiurkan saat ini dengan mengejar cita-cita saya yang sesungguhnya. Menjadi jurnalis!
"Awesome huh? I’m proud having a friend like her. I’m proud having friends that knows what they want in their lives and will do anything to achieve that dream of their’s. And because of this reason too, I love my girlfriend. hahaha."
Persahabatan kami tidak pernah manis. Kasar, namun erat. Bahkan melebihi orang-orang yang terbiasa bicara lembut. Tak pernah berisi dukungan semu, tapi sarat dengan saran-saran realistis dan penyadaran bahwa hidup memang terkadang pahit, namun saya tidak sendirian. Saya ingat, Ben paling tidak suka kalau saya mengeluh. Dan setiap saya ditimpa masalah, ia yang mengajari saya untuk menjadi wanita yang kuat and willing to take control. Makanya, meskipun saat ini kami berjauhan, saya tetap terbiasa bercerita dengan Ben kemudian saling menyumpah serapahi masalah kami masing-masing. Hahahaha. That's what i called 'so sweet'.
Last but not least, saya bersyukur dikelilingi para sahabat yang idealis dan selalu memberi dukungan positif. Sahabat-sahabat saya tidak ada yang terjebak bekerja di bank hanya karena iming-iming gaji besar atau karena hanya itulah lowongan yang banyak tersedia bagi fresh graduate. Sejak baru lulus kami sudah berkutat mengejar mimpi di bidang kami masing-masing. As for the ladies, tidak ada yang hanya ingin bekerja karena kewajiban kemudian bermimpi untuk menikah. Nope, we're far more than that and that's what I love about them. Guys, I'm so proud of you and I know we will be magnificent! :-)

a friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are. fuck you guys for being so awesome.
-Ben. K. C. Laksana
meet him.
PS : We made this together. By 'made this together' I mean i just pocoyized our figures, sent it to him and he did the rest of the works. Aren't they cute? I've always been the small one and he made it exactly that way. And yours is so you, boyfriend. Love it! :)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
It Was So Much Fun



Padahal baru 3 bulanan nggak ketemu (kecuali gue sama Wita yang tiap bulan pasti ketemu) tapi hebohnya ngalah-ngalahin yang udah nggak ketemu berapa taun gitu. Tapi gue seneng deh setelah pada kerja mau ketemu jadi gampang. Nggak kaya waktu kuliah yang kepisah-pisah parah, yang di Jakarta cuma Arief doang. Wita sama Benz di UPH kan itungannya udah jakarta coret nyet. Terus kalo mau jalan harus nungguin Fiki balik dari Manchester dulu. Zzzzz.... Itupun harus bagi-bagi sama ceweknya Fiki. Yang paling seru waktu mereka pada bohongin pacar-pacarnya dan rame-rame ke Bandung nyamperin gue waktu puasa. hahahahaha. Durhaka lo semua.
Oiya, itu kuenya buat Bink yang malemnya ulangtahun, tapi kita nggak ada yang nemenin Benz bikin surprise karena..... males. AHAHAHAHA. Gini deh kalo temenan kelamaan semua udah seenak jidat masing-masing. Tapi kan demi Bink gue sama Wita gantian mengarahkan AC ke kuenya dan kita nganterin Benz beli lilin sama topi. Hahaha. Bentuk cinta kasih kami berdua kepadamu, Benz. Sayang aja ya tadi malem Rio banyak pasien dan Fiki nggak pede karaoke karena takut jadi kaya Giant, padahal kita seru-seruan goyang dangdut dan headbanging. Ah, nyesel deh yang nggak ikut. Hihihi.
Benz jangan ngomel-ngomel mulu. Terimalah kenyataan temen-temen cewek lo ini pada 'belok'. teehehehehe....
Monday, June 21, 2010
Fairness.
Our mind tends to shut itself from information that contradicts our preconception..so think openly!
- firzie Idris
random blab
And that's not it. My laptop's broken too. But it's my fault. Last night i was kinda push it into a wall and now it's broken. My bad, I lost my temper. I should've said the 'GOOSFRABA' mantra but since it's just a script for Anger Management so it clearly doesn't work. This two things plus a HUGE fight last night's enough to sent me to bad mood this day. I don't want to work whatsoever. So today I plan on doing nothing productive. teeheee.
One good news, my new dress has arrived. Haven't got the chance to have a really decent try, my brother has just delivered it to me this morning. I bought it from Heymonstore and they got those cool artworks on their shirts and dresses. Well I did try it a bit this morning and it's superrrr comfortable. Oh my goodness great fabric. hey guys, thanks for the dress and cute paperbag by the way. So, this is the pic :

For those who know me so well, this shirt is so me isn't it? haha, ngarep. Anyway I'd love to post my pic with this shirt on but I don't think so since I don't have that kind of a supermodel body.
Oh and I ran out of money. Good crap. this day's fucking awesome.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
bermimpi terlalu tinggi
Ngobrol dengan Rinov memang selalu berhasil membangkitkan mimpi-mimpi dan ambisi di dalam diri saya. Kenapa ya? Jarang sekali lho saya mau berbagi mimpi dan ambisi hidup dengan seseorang. Anehnya, orang satu ini bisa. :-) Well, berawal dari obrolan ngalor ngidul di YM, obrolan kami berbuntut pada impian kami berdua untuk bisa jalan-jalan ke Eropa. Terdengar muluk mungkin. Tapi, saya rasa nggak ada yang nggak mungkin ah di dunia ini. Putri duyung yang saya kira fiktif saja ternyata beneran ada, meskipun aslinya jauh sekali dari wanita cantik berambut panjang yang ada di dongengnya Hans Christian Andersen.

Hahahaha. Nggak penting ya? Ya pokoknya ini kan cuma gambaran kalau sebenarnya segala sesuatu itu mungkin-mungkin saja. Sambil ngobrol, saya iseng googling gambar-gambar kota Venice, my first destination if i get to go to Europe. Tanpa sengaja, saya malah nyasar ke situs Hilton hotel Venice dan beberapa menit setelahnya kami ber-ooohhh aaahhh mengagumi this breathtaking place. I swear Venice seems like the most beautiful place on earth. At night, everything just seems so romantic. And it would be wonderful if I get the chance to go there. I swear it really is.... Amazing.


this is the pool on the hotel rooftop. You can see Venice with its complete beauty from above.
I can't find the complete picture of the restaurant but I assure you they got this very beautiful riverside restaurant that is sooo aaweessooomee. I'll envy myself if I ever eat a single rice there.Obrolan ini juga mengingatkan saya akan pertanyaan seorang tante saya beberapa bulan yang lalu. "Setelah punya gaji sendiri, kamu mau nabung untuk beli apa dulu yang pertama kali?". Tanpa berpikir panjang, saya menjawab sigap "Eropa!!" yang disambut derai tawa tante saya. Mungkin memang terdengar aneh ya? Tapi bukankah mimpi semua orang berbeda dan boleh dong kalau Eropa menjadi mimpi saya? Saya setuju dengan kata-kata Donna Levine, take one step towards your dream. Jadi langkah pertama saya adalaahhhh... MENABUNG! Rencana yang sempat terlupakan, yang sempat saya beberkan ke Mama, harus saya lakukan lagi dari awal. AYO SEMANGAT!!!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
Jurnalis
Sampai lama kelamaan saya sadar, apa sih satu hal di dunia ini yang bener-bener bisa bikin saya tersenyum? Menulis ternyata! Iya, waktu senang atau sedih rasanya lega dengan menulisnya di media apapun. Meskipun majunya teknologi mengizinkan saya menulis semuanya dalam bentuk microsoft word, tapi nothing beats paper. Beneran deh. Sampai usia 23 tahun ini kadang saya masih memilih cara konvensional menulis semuanya di sebuah buku yang jangan sampai ditemukan siapa-siapa karena isinya sangat sangat...hmmm...vulgar. Ahahaha. Nggak deng... pribadi. Ya semacam diary minus kalimat pembuka "dear diary, hari ini aku lalalala' gitu deh.
Sejak itulah saya memutuskan ingin menjadi seorang jurnalis. Dimata saya, jurnalis wanita itu sangat WOW. Meliput berita langsung ke sumbernya yang pasti tidak mudah dan harus mengelilingi dunia dengan mengemban misi melahirkan sebuah berita. 7 bulan setelah lulus kuliah, impian ingin menjadi jurnalis ini terusik setelah saya barusan rapat dengan sebuah saluran tv kabel. Mereka meminta wartawan olahraga di tempat saya bekerja untuk menjadi komentator di acara mereka. Atasan saya mengajukan nama salah seorang teman baik saya sejak kuliah yang kini menjadi wartawan di tabloid tempat saya bekerja, "Kami punya wartawan muda disini, namanya Firzie.. blablablabla". Deg. Entah kenapa ada rasa 'nyesss' di dada saya. betapa bangganya ya disebut sebagai seorang wartawan muda? Dan mendadak saya berfikir, "What Am I Doing Here?"
Brief introduction, sebelumnya saya terjebak sebagai seorang copywriter gadungan di sebuah majalah ternama. Kenapa gadungan? Karena job desc-nya agak kurang jelas. Sekarang saya malah nyemplung di bagian Marketing Communication. Memang dinamis dan seru sekali, tapi masih ada yang kurang lengkap. Hidup saya kurang lengkap tanpa menulis. Ya, saya masih ingin membangun mimpi menjadi jurnalis. Dan saya nggak pengen menulis untuk majalah franchise dari luar. Saya nggak mau cuma men-translate berita. Di tempat saya bekerja saat ini, betapa terkagum-lagum dan teriri-irinya saya pada mereka yang dikirim meliput liga-liga sepakbola ke seluruh dunia, langsung dari lokasinya! Kalau saya khatam dunia bola, tanpa berfikir panjang saya langsung melamar ke redaksi. Sayangnya, saya sudah meninggalkan kecintaan saya terhadap dunia bola bersamaan dengan Steve McManaman hengkang dari Liverpool dan memilih Real Madrid.
Saya memang tidak into politics, tapi saya mau belajar. Tata bahasa saya mungkin masih belepotan, tapi kalimat 'willing to learn' di dalam CV saya bukan basa-basi kok. Saya berniat benar-benar belajar. Kalau sudah tercapai, saya ingin mewujudkan cita-cita saya yang lain lagi, membuat sebuah buku. Tapi itu masih lama, saya ingin orang menyebut saya sebagai 'wartawati' dulu, baru sebuah buku berkualitas akan menyusul di belakangnya. Pasti orang-orang di sekitar saya bangga ya kalau impian saya terwujud? Iya, itu yang selalu saya inginkan. Karena saya yang sekarang sepertinya blm bisa dibanggakan. Belum ada yang bisa dipamerkan. Bukan berarti ingin pamer, tapi saya ingin mereka bangga memperkenalkan saya pada dunianya. Lah, jadi curhat. Hihihihi. Ya maaf ya kan memang sedang melankolis.
Singkat cerita, saya berencana meninggalkan posisi dengan bayaran menggiurkan saat ini dengan mengejar cita-cita saya yang sesungguhnya. Menjadi jurnalis!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Blab.
but you know it wouldn't be smooth.
When the time is right,
you know nothing on your sight.
It'll become a perfect blurs,
the decision is yours.
Creating ideal life of your own,
what if you still got none?
With a sore throat you screamed,
just how wrong have you been.
Go through the main plan,
you'll smile in the end.
Hatred won't take its vengeance,
still you lose your energy.
Everything's in God's hands,
So please, don't worry.
(^_^)
one morning.

I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived
There's a shade come over this heart that's coping with laying down to rest
I'm Dying to live without you again
I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see
It's the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent
I'm Dying to live without you again
The first time you left I said goodbye
Now there's not a prayer that can survive
Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again
Holiday
Lie.
And i don't know why i have to be such an emotional bitch. and relationships are just not for a person like me. Relationships could be the total nervewrecking. Mantra.... mantra... sekarang sedang berusaha mengingat mantra... 'lahir sendirian.. mati dikubur sendirian.. hidup juga harus mandiri..' ayoo... think like that! think like that!!
oh and, karma's not a bitch. It's a reminder how bitchy you were before.
All in all, being grown ups are sucks. It would be wonderful if God allowed me to be an eternal infant. ok, that's weird.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Killing Time
The age of my next birthday:

Definitely Venice
aaaanndd.... Hawaiii!!!Favorite Places:

My bedroom. Of course this picture's not my bedroom at friggin' all. But, I'd loooove to have one like that.
Pancious Pancake House. They served the best Carbonara in town. Enough said.
Favorite Food (s):
Pasta!
Any types of fried chicken! Yummy!
Favorite Things:

Books and lots of books!

Cute dresses!
Favorite color (s):

The city I've lived in:

4 years full of adventures! :-)
A nickname I have:
Babas!
A bad habit:
I'm too lazy to do anything...
The hobbies:



errr... I don't really want to tag everyone since people leaving blogspot lately and moving out to tumblr. I still don't understand what tumblr's for. So I guess i stick to Blogspot. Better yet, there won't be more jobless people kepo-ing my page like it used to. teeheee.
cheers.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
happy birthday to meeee!
The day after, we decided to go to Seaworld, ancol, to reminisce the past since we haven't gone there for a loooooooooooooooong time. It's happened to be Friday on long weekend period so Seaworld was pretty jam packed with people. But we made our way around to see amazing creatures of the sea. There are turtles, sharks, seahorses, and dugong! You won't believe how much similarities that we had. Like we both love to eat and laying around wasting our time for allll daaayyy long. Haha. But it's cute though.
But one thing's odd. I don't know if Seaworld has running out of ideas for what more creatures to put in their tanks, or Indonesian people are craving for more odd things, but now Seaworld has a python in one particular tank. Not only just that. They also had this big stage full of dancing snake and other odd snake's performances to cheer up the audience. And for me, it really was just sooo weiiirrdd.....
But we had a blasting day and it was quite fun! And he was taking lots of my pictures there and i was sooo happy. really. Then we sort of running out of ideas where to go later and decided to have lunch at McD. We took a shuttle bus, along with smelly alay2. hihihi. But then you guessed it right, McD was sooo full of human and we decided to eat pizza but we have to take a long walk back to reach Pizza Hut.
We stopped in the midlle because i already felt so tired and we decided to eat at Le Bridge. The funny thing is, we're both not a romantic couple, but ironically we ate in this sea side restaurant, sit in the sofa facing the sea. Hahaha just to hear it giving a romantic bumps on you doesn't it? But for us, it's pretty funny.
We decided to go back to my lodge after that because it's pretty exhausting. the day was hot too. So we go back by taxi to kota and we rode a busway to Setiabudi. We clearly can't stop ourselves from smiling. That's not it? nope. In saturday we had lunch together with my families and it's the first time he got to meet them even though my father's not there. and he left quite a good impression on them.
All in all, this is a good start. :-)

Kok kayanya narsis banget ya abis cerita panjang lebar terus foto ini yang gue pajang2? hahahaa. Abis, to be honest, lupa terus mau ngambil fotonya dari laptop rinov. Later on I'll upload the rest of it.