selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa!!

Loves It!

Everytime me and my girls talk about sex and the city they always thought i'm the samantha. you know, wild, careless and love to try new things. But actually, I love carrie more than Samantha. I mean, she's smart and she has her own column in a New York Post. I remember some episodes where Carrie met this amazing guy, Aiden Shaw, who loves her very much and he has everything a girl could ask for. he's all that. and they gone through this amazing relationship. however, Carrie cheated behind his back, with mr.big. she thought Aiden is the one she needs but Big is the one she wants. at the end she confessed everything to aiden and they ended their relationship eventhough she didn't end up with Big either. end of story. no. sometimes later, carrie met Aiden once again. accidentally. By the time, Aiden was already being with someone. then something strucked Carrie. like the old man says 'you don't know what you got till it's gone'. she knew right there and then she wants aiden, she still loves him. eventhough she has hurt him but she knew it was a mistake. she took him for granted but she regret it. and then she strives to get him back. being a pain in the ass for Aiden, follow him everywhere. but then they get back together. Aiden forgiae her and they even move together. happy ending? no. at the end aiden proposed to her but she refused thinking that she's not sure if married to aiden is what she wants with her life.

courtesy of Harper's Bazaar US

God I love these pics. but these are a photo spread pictures for some magazine. But I found some more interesting pictures of Carrie and Aiden from their scenes, so it's more touching I think.
I remember this scene. it's when they ended their first relationship. eventhough they still love each other but Aiden couldn't accept what carrie did behind her back. which i think it adds up more sad feeling to it's stories.
and it's when they're ended their second relationship. they knew they love each other very much and care about each other. but living together has drive them crazy sometimes till they get to the part where they're not sure if being together for the rest of their lives is what they really want.
and I hate it when Mr. Big took her back. But come ooooonnn. it wouldn't be an interesting story if she ends up with Aiden Shaw.

the new page.

I start looking for a job. there's some positions I really want in some offices and I need your best wish so that maybe it could bring me some luck. you know I'm lying around too much. but lately, I can't work on my thesis but I don't have other things to do either, at the end I was just mourning my lost all day. I have to change that. I have to be something of my own. Maybe I can't sing in band, I just sing in inul vista. Maybe can't have my own hairsalon, and that's really not my thing. I mean, cutting people's hair??? are you kidding?? I might cut their head along with the hair. But maybe I can work. work my ass off until I get what I want. Maybe I can learn to be a real hardworker. that's life right? life is a hardwork. So I have to earn every achievement and accept every failure. I want to be a writer. I have to earn that, no, STRIVE! I have to prove that I'm exist. this isn't a competition. I was wrong. this is my own game, where I have to prove my capability to the world so that I might have something to hold on to when it's happen again and again. like, maybe she owns that boutique, she plays a guitar, I can say, "SO WHAT? I"M A WRITER AND I LOVE WHAT I DO. I DON"T CARE WHAT YOU DO. we have different talents I won't bother thinking about having talents that you have. we succeed in our own way afterall."

someday, I want to say that out loud. I wish myself some luck.

I'm doooooneeeeeeee...

I was growing up in a religious institutions as a kid and a teenager. I went through some famous muslim schools which later make me so tired of those renungan rohani things. The thing where you have to sit down on the floor, bowing to the ground, closing your eyes then you hear one of your mentors told you some sad stories, about how you'd been a pain in the ass to your parents, how you'd been a sinner etc etc. i mean, none of that is wrong and I do believe they have a good intentions showing it. But i'm sick of those crying voice. you knoe the one that goes "huuuhuuu..." or "hiks hiks..." or everything. I've felt like biggest sinner ever in some part of my life but I never felt so close to god like when I'm alone and chanting my prayers alone, only me and HIM know. but hearing those snorting voices made me angry like, 'ganggu banget si lo?' haha sorry if i'm too harsh. hahaha. but it really is the fact.

maybe it's based on the fact that i'm bored shitless. i went to this religious seminary at my mom's office and it's fun. WAY MORE FUN than what i've thought. and i've absorbed so many new informations and knowledges i've never known before. but it was sooo loooong. we started at 8 in the morning where I've arrived at the location at 7 am. then we go all the way till 7 pm. i literally want to die. tired. i enjoyed the renungan rohani part cause i think it made you realized your sins but then i'm done with all those snorting voices. HAAAAA!!!
I went through a lotta these for the rest of mylife resulting numb feelings toward sensitive issues like these. I was not crying not even a single tears. I just wanted to go home for that I couldn't concentrate. hahaha

aaaarrrggghh

di bandung, kemana2 naik angkot, jalan kaki, nebeng orang. pake t-shirt sama jeans aja nggak masalah. jalan ke pusat perbelanjaan juga cuek aja. namanya juga kota pelajar, paling ketemu cw2 lain gayanya jg nggak jauh beda sama gue. kecuali sabtu yang jd agak rame ya...

begitu balik ke jakarta, tujuan hang out nomor satu: mall. karena segala ada. dan gue nggak pernah ngerasa sekekurangan baju kaya sekarang2 ini di jakarta. kalo lagi ke mall berasanya dekil banget. sementara yang lain kinclong2 parah. dan gue mulai menyesal wasting my money for all those t-shirts. I should've bought girly tanktops or dresses instead.

shit.

I want these...

gue sadar sih makin lama blog gue makin sampah.. tapi yaaa suka2 gue kan yaaa. ini kan blog gueee... kalo males baca ya nggak usah bacaa.. hahaha.

jadi kemarin gue ke ladies bazaar kan di citos. terus gue bertujuan beli sendal dan warnanya HARUS silver karena sendal silver gue udah di ujung maut. bentar lagi copot talinya meskipun masih gue pake kemana2 juga sih biar agak oglek2 dikit. naaahh terus liat sendal indiahe lucu bangeeeeettttt. bukan yg ada kincring2nya gt sih.. tp ada manik2 silvernya gt lucu banget sumpaaaahhh. tapi harganya 350rb. sampah deh. kalo itu flats masih gue bela2in kali. tapi ini hanya sandal!!! yang bakal gue pake hampir tiap hari tiap saat (karena silver goes with almost anything) terus berapa bulan juga uda bakal butut. yaaahh jadi batal beli deh. cumaaa I still want an indiahe sandals! or at least an india look alike sandal deh nggak apa2 juga.
kaya gini kali yaa? tapi maunya yang less heboh jangan yang kincring2 banget kaya gini. oh dan warnanya pengennya silver biar bisa dipake terus.

terus pengen see through blouse! buat sidang. abis kalo sidang nggak mungkin pake tank top gitu kaaan dalemnya pasti harus kemeja. tapi gue males gerah. tapi emang dasar gue deh, bab4 aja belom beres2. gue malah lebih musingin pake baju apa ntar pas sidang sama wisuda ketimbang masalah substansi. hahahaha.dan gue nggak tau kenapa pas gue search ini yang keluar banyakan gambar bokepnya drpd gambar baju fashionnya. hahaha.

udah sih.. dua ini doang yang gue lagi pengen banget. pengennya bukan yang pengen2 nggak mungkin kesampean gt. pengennya bener2 pengen beli! so if anyone of you know where to get these, please inform me! thank you!

I HATE SUNDAY!

I know the tagline I hate Monday but for me Monday is a fresh start. Go out, meet some friends, laughing so hard etc. But I like it anyway. at the contrary, I hate Sunday for sure. I don't know why do people always being so lazy at this day when actually I wanna go out, eat somewhere, shopping or whatever but all they care about is laying down in front of tv which shows you some tacky 'sinetron' or another lame shows. So, I turn to my blog and fill this!!


1. how old are you?
22

2. are you single?
sadly, yes

3. at what age do you think you'll get married?
I had several psychic people read my palm and they said I would be marry at 27 which I think it's ok for me. ok? not? on? you think?

4. do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
who's the person I am with now?? I'm with no one.

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
I know God has plan for us, someone that's meant for us. but still, I want to marry.... Brandon Boyd. haha. kidding. I want to marry a guy with glasses on his eyes.

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
Bridesmaid: vira olla jablay sukma bacok hahahaha banyak ya.. bodo biar ga pilih kasih.
Bestman : Rengga ben rean choki chaki

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
I want a modern wedding. I want it to be an indoor wedding but I'll have the decorator makes it looks like it's outdoor in a beautiful secret garden.

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
some place with romantic ambience. Maldives maybe? and it surely is will involve lots of SEX! hahahaha.

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?
closest friends for about 250. family will only attend the akad nikah.

10. will that include your exes?
I have no idea. Exes are a sensitive issues don't you think? So I reaaly have no idea.

11. how many layers of cake do you want?
I don't know. I just hope it will be suuupppeeeerrr deliciouuussss... and must involve lots of chocolate!!

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
the ceremony in morning aaannnddd the reception at night. with beautiful lights and candles around the room.

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.?
I finally found someone. it's been my choice since I was at my elementary school! hahaha.

14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
fine dining.

15. champagne or red wine?
both plus all cocktail, sweet alcoholic drinks, name it!

16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
I don't care. it's always a honeymoon as long as i'm with him. hahahaha. ih sampah banget gue rayuan gombal.

17. money or household items?
money... I can choose the household items by myself. it has to match my house's decorations which will involve a lot of reds and blacks.

18. how many kids would you like to have?
4! I'd love to have a big family of my own.

19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
yaaaeeeeyaaalaaaaahh menurut L???

20. whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
everyone who read this!! share your wedding plan would you?? terutama vira! HEH, gue tau lo uda kabita banget! hahaha

ini kayanya gue tau nih siapa yang bakal jadi kaya gini,

hahahahahahahahahaha....

congratulations Icha & Tody

Last saturday was one of my bestgirl's wedding. They've been together for 8 years and they decided to get married since they've been part of each families either. so, that saturday, it was a sunny day, boiling hot I must say, but it didn't decrease the lovely atmosphere there. it was just a small party but everything went great. the decoration is so beautiful, the food is delicious, the wedding singers have a beautiful voice and sang beautiful songs. it was GREAT! here are some of the highlights:

They legally married! now they are a husband and a wife. awww...

Panitia bagian repot sama bagian heboh. hahahaha.
Us and the bride. she's glowingly beautiful that day. at first she looked kinda nervous but when the ijab kabul done, she couldn't stop her lips from smiling. aaahhh we're sooo happy for you cha.
Us and the chubby groom. hahaha. aduuh tody no offense tapi muka lo bener2 nggak husband material deh.. hahaha

the flower throwing section! it was chaotic. the girls out there were screaming and jumping like crazy to get the flower. you know there's this belief which says, anyone who got the flower will be the next to marry. hahaha. ketauan kan kalo uda pada kebelet. actually, ayu got the flower. but dieska and putri were sooo desperate to get it too, so they insist Ayu to take this phoyo, pretending that they got the flower. hahaha. GOBLOK LO BERDUA. liat deh mukanya yano uda males git seolah mengatakan, "apaan sih? cuma bunga doang juga.." hahahaha
at first, they put me as the frontliner altogether with margie, vivin and fiona. but we got bored easily and there's not so many people coming either, so we abandoned the front desk and blending with another audience. bad..bad..habit...
the wedding trophy from us for icha! it makes us wonder, who will be the next to receive this trophy? hahahahaha. ayu kali ya? kan dia yang dapet bunga. haha.

afterall, the ceremony went great. it was filled with laughter everywhere, so bless you guys. may you live hapilly ever after. *hugs and kisses*

everything's almost complete!!

sim udah balik! ktp udah balik! nomer udah balik ke yang lama! tinggal hp baru nih yang belooom..sama atm deng..tp gue malah lagi males megang atm. takut boros.

btw, pas nyalain hp seneng banget liat sms pertama yang masuk! HAHAHAHAHA. aduuuhhh coba lo nulis lebih dari sekedar, 'dimana lo?'. gue langsung tumpengan beneran kali. hahahaha.

now and then

Iseng2 aja jadi keingetan bedanya gue waktu kecil sama sekarang:

- dulu gue suka banget ikut mbak belanja ke pasar. kayanya seru, banyak ikan idup. sekarang gue males banget sama yang namanya pasar. macet. bau. crowded. kotor.
- dulu pink warna wajib gue. nggak mau sekolah kalo sepatunya nggak pink. sekarang gue paling males sama warna pink. kesannya too cute dan bikin kulit gue jadi norak warnanya.
- dulu gue suka banget makan timun sama bayam. dimakan gitu aja nggak pake apa-apa. sekarang gue nggak suka banget sayur.
- dulu gue suka ngegadoin saos tomat. sekarang gue nggak sefreak itu. hahahaha.
- dulu gue keriting parah. sekarang keseringan dilurusin jadi wavy doang, nggak keriting2 banget.
- dulu gue gendut PARAH. sekarang sekel doang karena kalo kurus banget gue jadi kaya anak kampung. gue pernah kurus banget trus karena gue item sumpah yaa itu gue nggak ada menarik2nya.
- dulu gue nggak suka keju sama pizza karena menurut gue bentuknya aneh. skrg itu makanan favorit banget. gue inget gue mulai makan pizza gara-gara gue tau devon sawa suka pizza. dan waktu itu devon sawa lagi booming banget gara2 film casper. hahahaha.
- dulu kaos gue gombrong2 dan males banget pake kaos ketat gitu. jijay lengket2 gimanaaa gt. skrg gue pake kaos gombrong kalo lagi males gaya doang.
- dulu gue suka dengerin lagu dangdut. jadi sekarang lumayan masih ada beberapa yang afal. gue juga nggak tau knp gue dulu iya2 aja dengerin lagu dangdut.
- dulu tekanan darah gue tinggi untuk ukuran anak2, sekarang gue malah darah rendah. gampang banget pingsan. panas dikit, pingsan. sumpek dikit, pingsan. gawat deh.
- dulu gue galak banget di rumah. suka teriak2 marah2 kaya ibu tiri. sekarang gue sih kaleum...hahaha.

yang gue inget baru itu doang. sampah nggak penting banget sih. tp seru lho nginget2nya. hahaha.

gue sedang mencari...

Gue lagi nyari teori yang nyebutin kalo dua orang yang keseringan bareng will unconsciously connected in a way, yang bakal bikin mereka sering melakukan hal-hal secara bersamaan tanpa mereka sadari. ya gitu deh pokoknya. tapi gue belum nemuin teori seperti itu. tapi gue sering banget ngalamin kebetulan-kebetulan kayak gitu kalo lagi keseringan bareng sama seseorang.

Dulu waktu masih tinggal sekostan sama sukma dan kemana-mana selalu nempel berdua kayak biji itu sering banget gue sama dia ngomong suatu hal yang sama dan keluarnya bareng, lupa sih persisnya apa. tapi waktu dia uda pindah kostan dan gue masih attached sama dia, pernah gitu ke kampus taunya baju kita kembaran. jadi seharian itu gue sama sukma nggak mau deket-deket soalnya keliatan kayak anak panti. jadi jauh2an gitu, dan pas sore2 makan bareng gue pake pashmina jadi bajunya ketutupan. hahaha. trus sering banget gue ganti baju di detik2 terakhir sebelum berangkat ke kampus, taunya ketemu sukma lagi pake baju yang tadinya mau gue pake. sukma juga suka gitu. hahaha.

pernah juga ada masanya gue kemana2 lagi bareng viraaa terus. dan emang gue sama vira yang paling nggak ada rahasia gitu kan. nah itu juga sering banget ngomong sesuatu barengan. atau dia sms gue persis pas gue juga lagi ngetik sms buat dia, sebaliknya juga gitu. yang paling aneh sih waktu pas kapan gue iseng nyanyi2 lagu BBB tapi liriknya gue rubah2 gitu. dari 'diskonya bubar' jadi 'tutur tinular'. anjing, itu menurut gue uda pikiran one of a kind banget kan tuh? taunya besoknya gue tau dari temen gue, dia denger gue nyanyi2 'tutur tinular' itu terus ngomong, "hahahaha. kok lo sama ira nyanyiannya sama sih??" DOENG! jadi ternyata dia juga ngerubah lirik yang sama itu padahal kemarennya itu vira di rumahnya yang jauh banget dan gue dikostan. hahaha. itu freak banget lho.dan tambah aneh lagi waktu tau ternyata gue sama dia sama2 lahir di pagi hari lebaran. cuma beda satu taun aja. ngahahaha. ih itu aneh banget. tapi kalo baju samaan sih hampir nggak pernah, karena selera baju beda banget. tapiii kalo warna baju samaan lumayan sering terutama kalo lagi in the mood for hitam-hitam. hahahahaha.

sekarang setelah gue back for good ke jakarta, hari-hari gue banyakan sama kania kan. ditambah gue sama kania lagi bikin kebaya bareng, jadi fitting bareng terus ke penjahit ini. awalnya sih nggak ada sama2an gitu sama dia. lama2 mulai kerasa deh aneh2nya. hahaha. jadi pernah pas kapan gue ke penjait datengnya nggak bareng, taunya hari itu sama2 pake legging abu2 sama kaos putih. terus sandalnya sama PERSIS SIS SIS sampe ke warna, model dan mereknya. terus pas kita janjian mau pake high heels dan jalan di PS, kita berangkatnya sama2 pake flats dulu soalnya mau ke kampusnya dia dulu bentar. eh pas di ps ganti sepatu, high heels gue sama dia kembar! bener2 kembar cuma beda warna aja. dia abu2 gue beige gitu. asu. kemaren juga jackpot sih, gue fitting baju lagi. lagi-lagi sandalnya samaan tp yaudahlah yaaa nah surprise-nya baru pas buka baju. ternyata bh gue samaan sama kania!!! hahahaha. yayaya kedekatan ini mulai menakutkan...

you know you're indonesia when....

I found this in one of my friend's blog. enjoy! maybe you'll find yourself in one of these points. hahaha.

Your stomach growls when you don’t eat rice for a day.

You believe kecap ABC could turn bad cooking to gourmet food.

You talk during a movie.

You eat fried rice in the morning.

You think Rhoma Irama is kampungan.

You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy tahu and tempe.

You are very good at avoiding potholes and other road hazards.

Your local McDonald’s serves rice and sambal.

You think Supermi is a staple food.

You have ever tried passing a Rp 50 coin as a quarter in a US vending machine/pay phone.

You have ever successfully bribed a police officer.

You have ever successfully bribed a customs officer.

You do your shopping in Singapore.

Your drivers license claims you are 5 years older then you really are.

You have ever legally bought pirated software.

You have ever been forced to memorize UUD’45.

You have bought something from a barefooted street peddler.

You have ever eaten something sold off a cart on wheels.

The first thing that comes to mind when hearing the word “Jakarta” is “macet”.

Someone you know has ever ridden on top of a train.

Your daily commute includes thinking up new ways to ride the city bus for free.

You don’t mind people being late.

You think standing in line is a waste of time.

You have tried every Monday of your youth trying to avoid upacara bendera.

You have used a mosquito repellant that looks like a coil and is lit on one end.

You use the terms “Ni yee”, “-lah” and “Ih, jijay” on daily basis

You know what Pancasila is, what it means and know it by heart.

You complain that movies in America don’t have sub-titles.

Your daily conversation may include enactments of TV commercials.

Your whole class has ever cheated on a test, and gotten away with it.

You have ever spent the night before an exam looking for someone who sells the questions.

You like the smell of terasi.

You think the Thomas Cup is equal to the Super Bowl.

You can name a manufacturer of shuttlecocks/badminton birdies.

You have ever ridden in a motor vehicle with three wheels.

You miss your maid during laundry day.

Your clothing has brand names printed on it that is visible from 50′ away.

You attend weddings only until you are done eating.

You have attended weddings that you are not invited to.

You have a can of Baygon on your kitchen table.

You make major decisions based on gengsi.

Someone in your family has extra pockets in his outfit to hide cookies from the all-you-can-eat bar.

You have paid more then $1000 to get your name on your license plate.

When watching TV you regularly find that all the channels broadcast the same thing.

You know more than 10 acronyms/abbreviations.

You have one of those gigantic 5000 watts stereo system even though you can’t turn it as loud as you can since you live in a crowded neighborhood.

Your Toyota Kijang is packed with bull bar, fog lights, roof rail, car alarm, expensive car audio, gold plated emblems, tail light “protector”, racing steering wheels, sports muffler, lowered suspension, 17 inch wheels with expensive tires, etc. Yet you find them not gaul enough.

You are able to squeeze 15 passengers in your Toyota Kijang.

You refuse to buy unleaded gas for your imported car even though it costs less than 20 cents a liter.

You have your drivers license at the age of 14.

You got it without any driving tests.

You are unfamiliaYour stomach growls when you don’t eat rice for a day.

You believe kecap ABC could turn bad cooking to gourmet food.

You talk during a movie.

You eat fried rice in the morning.

You think Rhoma Irama is kampungan.

You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy tahu and tempe.

You are very good at avoiding potholes and other road hazards.

Your local McDonald’s serves rice and sambal.

You think Supermi is a staple food.

You have ever tried passing a Rp 50 coin as a quarter in a US vending machine/pay phone.

You have ever successfully bribed a police officer.

You have ever successfully bribed a customs officer.

You do your shopping in Singapore.

Your drivers license claims you are 5 years older then you really are.

You have ever legally bought pirated software.

You have ever been forced to memorize UUD’45.

You have bought something from a barefooted street peddler.

You have ever eaten something sold off a cart on wheels.

The first thing that comes to mind when hearing the word “Jakarta” is “macet”.

Someone you know has ever ridden on top of a train.

Your daily commute includes thinking up new ways to ride the city bus for free.

You don’t mind people being late.

You think standing in line is a waste of time.

You have tried every Monday of your youth trying to avoid upacara bendera.

You have used a mosquito repellant that looks like a coil and is lit on one end.

You use the terms “Ni yee”, “-lah” and “Ih, jijay” on daily basis

You know what Pancasila is, what it means and know it by heart.

You complain that movies in America don’t have sub-titles.

Your daily conversation may include enactments of TV commercials.

Your whole class has ever cheated on a test, and gotten away with it.

You have ever spent the night before an exam looking for someone who sells the questions.

You like the smell of terasi.

You think the Thomas Cup is equal to the Super Bowl.

You can name a manufacturer of shuttlecocks/badminton birdies.

You have ever ridden in a motor vehicle with three wheels.

You miss your maid during laundry day.

Your clothing has brand names printed on it that is visible from 50′ away.

You attend weddings only until you are done eating.

You have attended weddings that you are not invited to.

You have a can of Baygon on your kitchen table.

You make major decisions based on gengsi.

Someone in your family has extra pockets in his outfit to hide cookies from the all-you-can-eat bar.

You have paid more then $1000 to get your name on your license plate.

When watching TV you regularly find that all the channels broadcast the same thing.

You know more than 10 acronyms/abbreviations.

You have one of those gigantic 5000 watts stereo system even though you can’t turn it as loud as you can since you live in a crowded neighborhood.

Your Toyota Kijang is packed with bull bar, fog lights, roof rail, car alarm, expensive car audio, gold plated emblems, tail light “protector”, racing steering wheels, sports muffler, lowered suspension, 17 inch wheels with expensive tires, etc. Yet you find them not gaul enough.

You are able to squeeze 15 passengers in your Toyota Kijang.

You refuse to buy unleaded gas for your imported car even though it costs less than 20 cents a liter.

You have your drivers license at the age of 14.

You got it without any driving tests.

You are unfamiliar with electric stove.

You are even more unfamiliar with microwave ovens.

If you‘re a student, your main purpose in life is to succeed in UMPTN and get into a Universitas Negeri.

If you‘ve graduated from college, your main purpose in life is to find an easy job with big salary at a foreign company even if you have to stay unemployed for five years to find one.

If you finally got a job, your main purpose in life is now to get a wife/husband that’s rich, from a “good” family, and the most importantly good looking in order to memperbaiki keturunan.

You‘re proud to be Indonesian - and you pass these jokes on to allyour Indonesian friends!

r with electric stove.

You are even more unfamiliar with microwave ovens.

If you‘re a student, your main purpose in life is to succeed in UMPTN and get into a Universitas Negeri.

If you‘ve graduated from college, your main purpose in life is to find an easy job with big salary at a foreign company even if you have to stay unemployed for five years to find one.

If you finally got a job, your main purpose in life is now to get a wife/husband that’s rich, from a “good” family, and the most importantly good looking in order to memperbaiki keturunan.

You‘re proud to be Indonesian - and you pass these jokes on to allyour Indonesian friends!